So, this is a big step for me- returning to 3FC. The most difficult part has been admitting that I've failed at what I worked so hard at the first time. Back around this time in '08, I set out to lose weight, and I did- about 60 pounds. Amazing, right? I couldn't believe it! I was "tiny," loving the odious amounts of compliments, felt amazing, never sick, full of confidence, etc., etc.- you get the idea!! I couldn't believe what I had accomplished in such a short amount of time (under a year) and was just so happy with myself. During that time, I even met someone and fell in love, and life couldn't get any better! I was militant in my eating, my work outs, and using 3FC for it's unwavering support.
However, love began getting in the way..or should I say, making me lazy. The work outs went from 4 times a week, to 3, to non-existent. I ate whatever I wanted- hey, I was skinny! Of course I could! All of the things that motivated me before seemed to disappear because I was happy, and wasn't searching for that something more. And using this? forget it! I didn't need to spend time online anymore!
Well, I'm so awfully, completely ashamed to say I've gained everything back. I went from a size 8-10 to a gross, unhealthy 16-18. I have no energy, I'm stressed, lazy, and I can't bear to see pictures of myself now, let alone a few years ago because it makes me even more depressed. This week I've admitted that I have a "problem" and I need to get back on track. No more "tomorrow" or soon. It's now. And there's no turning back.
I rejoined my gym and my first assessment with the trainer is tomorrow. Watching what I eat already began this weekend, and I knew the third part of my regimen needed to be revisited- rejoining 3FC. It brought me so much joy, support and motivation before, I can't see going on my journey again without it!
I will get there, and I have so much to look forward to! A healthy body, better self esteem and confidence, more energy, and just an overall better outlook on life! And now since my boyfriend and I are discussing engagement and marriage more seriously, I'm determined not to be overweight for either one! He loves me no matter what, but I'll love myself that much more if I can feel good about me!
I'm back for real, and I'm going to stick with it. Thanks for reading