Hello
Hi, I'm elly and I hate diets and everything that has to do with diets.
But my back is killing me and I have trouble sleeping, so I need to diet for a while. I'm 270 pounds and would like to be under 200 some day in the future.
I love food. Like, LOVE. And I have no trouble finding people my size attractive (meaning, I don't mind being fat when it comes to the beauty aspect of being fat), so I've been fine with it until recently when I just.. wasn't. Can't be 28 and have trouble with my back.
I've never really dieted, except for in my teens when I was a regular teen obsessed with being thin for a couple of years (I was maybe like 180 when I last weighed myself 10 years ago), but I snapped out of it, as I really was becoming obsessed, depressed and sad. I decided put my mental health before my physical health, to put it short.
So I've had 10 gloooorious years of not giving a flying f**k, but now it's time.
Starting a low calorie diet when it comes in the mail, Thursday I think. It's powder shakes, and about the closest thing you can come to a powder diet being "healthy". Has everything the body needs, and only that. You probably don't know it, it's a local company in my part of the world. Developed by a hospital in the 70s.
I need to do it this way, as I'm afraid I would end up being 16 and obsessed again, if I were to count calories and limit food and weigh food and... I really, really don't want to go there again. So I'll try this first, to see if I am able to pull it off. I bought enough for 14 days, and I can do that, I'm sure... I think! We'll see. If I don't manage it, I'll take it from there - but I think I can. I think I can I think I can I think I can.
But I also think I need a place like this to rant or whatever.
So, this was a little bit random. Sorry. Just thinking out loud, as I really didn't know what to say. Do people even read these?
Last edited by conebone69; 03-07-2011 at 01:22 PM.
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