I just recently wrote a post about how I developed binging after starting the weight loss/maintenance journey. Before I simply overate, eating whatever and whenever I wanted. But it wasn't the desperate secretive wolfing down of as much as I could get my hands on. Unfortunately, after a few weeks of binges and then scrambling to get back on the wagon, I started restricting to make up for the mistakes. That was NOT good at all. I've snapped myself out of that pattern and have been doing well for nearly three weeks, but I'm afraid that binge desire will always be there.
Here's my post on the same topic from another thread...
Quote:
Have you ALWAYS been a binger or has that behavior developed over the weight loss/maintenance process? For me, it's the latter. Which is kind of frustrating, since this whole thing has been a journey to get healthier, but I have actually developed some unhealthy habits in the process.
Before I started losing weight, I simply didn't care what I ate. Sure, I wanted to lose weight, but I didn't make any effort to do so. I obviously over ate, and sometimes I was a little embarrassed about how much food I could pack away compared to others, but it was never the binge behavior. It wasn't the desperate OMG-I-need-to-eat-everything-I-can-get-my-hands-on-right-now feeling. I just ate what I wanted when I wanted (which was junk and way too often). I wasn't even much of an emotional eater.
I feel like my plan, even though it's a healthy, balanced plan based on nourishing and satisfying myself, has led me to binges. I feel like ANY plan would have, it's not a fault with my specific diet regimen. It's the fact that there are certain rules and restrictions that I have to follow. Even moderate rules like staying under 1600cal/day. Physically, I can easily satisfy myself in a very healthy way following this rule. Mentally and emotionally, this rule is easy for me to follow 95% of the time. But the fact that there is a "rule" at all, means that there's a rule to break. So eating over 1600cal/day is breaking a "rule," it's forbidden, it's rebellious. And then I get it in my head that if I'm breaking a rule, I might as well live it up. Teenagers that sneak into their parent's liquor cabinet aren't going to have a modest 4oz glass of red wine, they're going to go all out! So when I break the rule, I'm going over by thousands of calories, hence, a binge.
I have tried allowing treats in moderation...planning a fun-size candy bar in my calories or something. So then those "forbidden foods" are no longer "forbidden." But that just drives me insane. That one measley little taste of a treat doesn't satisfy me, it just makes me want to eat the whole bag of 'em.