So its 7:57 and i havent slept..I guess I'm feeling suddenly really motivated..really I have all month though but just now I'm doing something about it for real. I can't do this alone so I'm glad to see this site is around. He's my boring life story lmao

I'm 19 years old. I've struggled with weight my entire life..I was always a tall and very fat kid so I was kind of a mammoth and people were even afraid of me. In high school I became so depressed about my size and the teasing that came with it that I dropped out and I stopped eating entirely and within a year went from 270 lbs to 160lbs. I at the time was so crazed that I had still saw myself as fat despite knowing now that 160 lbs on a girl nearly 6 foot is not so bad.. anyway fast forward a bit, I get a boyfriend with a fat fetish and he tells me I look bad at that weight..I was young and easily manipulated so I believed him and dropped my maintaining. Fast forward some more and I'm 280 pounds and I hate my life and I hate what Ive done to myself and I can hardly look in a mirror anymore, enter a second depression and the eventual breakup with my boyfriend who was urging me to eat until I was 350 lbs because he thought it was sexy. (Dont get me wrong, I can appreciate a big girl but I don't think it's healthy to aspire for that!)

My father died, and shortly after I found out I have a hormone imbalance (too much testosterone) and ovarian cancer and 2 tumors that were actually softball sized and had to have them removed as well as my ovaries and now I am not only fat but covered in scars as well(It looks like I had a baby since they did a C section). However the lack of eating after surgery now I am at 269 pounds versus 280 but I am at this point having a very hard time losing weight, I just stay the same. I dont work out much..I spend a lot of time online because I sell my art and partake in many online fandoms and well..I'm just lazy..but I dont want to be! I am forced to stay on birth control because of my hormones..It is sprintec. does anyone know if that is keeping me from losing weight? Also do you have any exercise ideas someone alone can do without much money? (I'm 19 and have no parents, nor can I afford a gym)

I think ideally I would love to be about 150lbs...thats about 100 pounds + to lose.

And any tips for fast yet healthy weight loss?

Hi, you have been through a lot and wish you good luck on your journey.

If you loose 2 pounds a week you would reach your goal within a year it might seem long but it would be healthy and you would have more chance to keep the weight off. Two pounds a week might sound little but it takes a lot of motivation and hard work to get that loss but the most important is that your body will adapt more easily and since you recently had health problems it needs some kindness.

I would suggest that you meet a nutritionist in order to establish a good balance weight loss program that would allow you also to heal properly from your surgery, your body went through **** recently. Also and I am saying it kindly, in the past you starved yourself to loose weight and you might be more fragile to get on the same pattern, it would be unwise.

As far as exercise you can start by walking every day and build up on it.

Good luck.

Welcome!

I've got a couple of suggestions for you ... although you are very welcome to read and post wherever you'd like ....
Lots of folks have health struggles that compromise weight loss
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/dieting-obstacles-14/

And we have a lovely bunch of folks who want to lose over 100 lbs
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/100-lb-club-55/

Make yourself at home. We're glad you're here.

You're close to my age and I can't imagine going through all the things you've already been through. I think you've come to the right place to get lots of good tips, ideas, and most importantly support. I can't answer too many of your questions except the birth control one. I have been on Sprintec for almost two years now and although I may have gained some weight during the first few months of starting it...it was probably because I was a freshman in college (ya know how that goes lol.) I was able to lose about 20 pounds last year and have started my weight loss journey again about 2 weeks ago. I don't think the BC is affecting my weight loss at all. I'm losing at a healthy rate and, even though it may be a little tedious, I'm satisfied.

Make sure you browse around all the threads and find information that is relevant for you. Even if you don't post on them, I found that just browsing around and getting ideas/inspiration was/is extremely helpful.

Good luck!!