Hi everybody!
I am very new here and getting to know the works of the forum. I have been struggling with my weight since I was in elementary school and have fallen off the wagon, got back on and fallen off again numerous times. There just seems to always be something standing in my way; usually just myself. Right now, I'm a sophomore in college working towards my BFA in Musical Theatre. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I hope to marry in a few years and he thinks I am the most beautiful girl in the world. I want to lose my weight for me and so that I can be the best performer that I can be. Theatre is the primary my weight and figure are vitally important. Eventually, my career aspiration is to start my own performing arts youth program targeted towards children who typically slip through the cracks.
My current weight is 221 and I'm 5'4, putting my BMI at a scary 37. I am definitely not someone who will ever be a tiny little 120lbs., I have a large bone structure and a naturally curvy body. I haven't totally nailed down my goal weight yet, but I think that 165lbs. seems both doable and like a good place to sit. About 3 years ago, I was successful in losing about 45lbs. from the Weight Watchers diet. It was something that really worked with my style and I enjoyed it. Sad truth is that now that I am really supporting myself as a full time student, I simply can't afford it. I think my primary issues with keeping weight off are choices in food, and not getting enough exercise. Being that I am a college student, funds are very tight and I find my diet suffering significantly because of this. I often avoid buying fresh fruits and veggies because they spoil and choose instead highly processed junk because I can make it last until I have grocery money again. My thing with exercise is that it's kind of a hit and miss for me. I am required to take pretty rigorous dance classes as part of my school work multiple times per week, but outside of that I;ll do a workout DVD, or go running once in a while, but nothing consistent.
I think what I am looking for from here is some inspiration. I so often get stuck in the mindset that I am doomed to look this way and I know that I'm not, I've gotten out of it before. I am looking for those daily reminders to stay on track and stay motivated. So here's to day one, let's get this show on the road!
I need to get backon the wagon
Dhani 
