Hi Ya!
My name is Lacy and I am a newbie to 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet. Let me just jump right into my story.
I am 27 years old, about 6 foot tall, and weight 375lb... at least I think. Hard for me to find a scale that'll hold me without it screaming at me in pain.
I wasn't always this big. I use to be pretty thin. When I was 18, graduating from high school, I weighed about 180. (That was a really great weight for my height and frame) I had horrible self esteem and suffered greatly from depression. When it come to my body image I never thought highly of myself.
After high school I moved 2 hours away to go to college. Things didn't go well, I was still suffering from depression and I wasn't cooping with the huge change in my life. I dropped out after the semester, moved back home, and my weight went to about 210-220.
I lived in a fog for the next 5 or 6 years. I was miserable... sad and lonely... depressed and alone. The weight creeped on. I was tired of being sad and depressed, tired of hating life. I started to see a counselor when I was about25. It was one of the best decisions I made in my adult life. He helped me realize a lot and for the first time in about 15 years I was happy, wanted to live, and was learning to like myself. (I like myself... still learning to truly love myself)
Now, it's 2 years later... not really sure where the time went. I do know that I weigh more then I have ever weighed in my life. I weigh 375lbs. I never thought I could hit a number so high.
I have to admit I spent a lot of time trying to ignore the fact. Never being in pictures. Trying to avoid mirrors. (And scales for that matter!) But now things are different...
Now that I am happy and comfortable with who I am, I'm tired of being alone. I want to find someone to fall in love with. But when I do look in the mirror and the person I see is unrecogniziable I can't help but think... how can anyone love me? (yes, very dramatic... but I'm a woman and I have the privilege of being dramatic at times. lol)
So... I want to lose weight. Not just so someone could possibly love me... but because I want to love myself. (liking myself is nice... but I need to love myself) I want to be healthy. I want to be comfortable in my own skin.
Ok... now that I have rambled and told my "life" story... I really hope that this place can become a comfortable place for me. I hope I meet some great people in which we can support each other.
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Dhani 