I've always known I'm a binge eater. I can check every box on that one.
I found a research study for binge-eating disorder (in Cincinnati, let me know if you want the details) and signed up. When I spoke with the research coordinator by phone this morning, she said I did not qualify for the study because I am actually bulimic, rather than just a binge-eater. She based this off the fact that after a large binge, I wouldn't eat for most of the next day (as a ways of trying to balance out the calories, I guess). And this has happened more than twice a week, some weeks.
Now, I KNOW I have disordered thinking toward food. But, do you think I'm bulimic? Does no one else "pay" for their binges the next day?
(BTW: I have never made myself throw up; I've tried, but can't make myself do it. So, perhaps I've wanted to be bulimic, but does that mean I am?)



I just shut my brains off and eat until I feel sick and literally can't eat any more. Sometimes because I'm literally sick, sometimes because there is no more food. It's heartbreaking to talk about it, but talking about it makes it real to me. I pretend it doesn't happen a lot. Like an alcoholic or addict. You will never get me to admit a binge while I am binging, like an addict.