thanks for the advise ladies, i really do appreciate it. in all honesty i have been through this before so i do know it gets easier and i know its not worth it and so forth i was just having my temper tantrum panic moment.
mkendrick~ thank you

every word you said is true, i just wanted to have a tantrum because i was fighting so hard with my flesh (what i wanted) so i figured i would come here and vent to see if it helped, and it did a little.you sure do know how to give tough love, a lot of people cant balance that out, last time i did this i did it by myself with no online support and lost 50lbs but doing it again i realize i really need this support so im glad i have that here.
i did not eat the chicken last night, i drank some water and went to bed

Thanks again ladies for the encouraging words!