Okay. So about 6 years ago I lost about 80 lbs with low carbs and a LOT of online support. Hey guess what, I gained it back. And then some. And it's because I KNOW what I have to do to have a healthy life style, but it's much "easier" (is it, really?!) to do it like "everyone else gets to." Right? hmmmm.
So I have these two beautiful daughters that just break my heart with the realization that I want to see their whole incredible lives. I have a totally hot and supportive and super wonderful man that I love that I want to love for our whole incredible life together, too. I have a mother with a current diagnosis of congestive heart failure, fibromalgia, and diabetes. I had three biological aunts (my mother was adopted, so we just learned this info within the last decade) that were extremely overweight and died, each before the age of 55. I have ALWAYS been the largest, heaviest female in my family. This is *not* the future I want for myself.
I've said goodbye to the ridiculous beauty standard as motivation. The last time I was successful at significant weight loss it really warped my brain that my stomach didn't just "disappear" but rather, looked kind of the same only smaller. I had a hard time reconciling even the HEALTHY and wonderful things that were happening with my body because I didn't fit an image in my head. And, I gave up - and it came back.
This is ALL about changing my life forever to support the best health that I can. Period end. In choosing my "goal weight" this time I just wanted to say "Until I feel and can maintain health." I put down a number, but I'm not totally attached to it. I think it's good for visualization purposes, but really, I have no idea what that number looks like.
What I want is community and support. And Love! And people that KNOW what it's like. I'm an emotional eater with a very busy and stressful life. I eat out of boredom, stress, frustration, anger, fear, happiness. Pretty much all of them. So, my plan is to Blog and commune instead. I think it will work.
Oh, and I'm a photographer, so I might drive you all nuts with photos of - everything!
Nice to meet you all! I look forward to our journey. Isn't it nice to know that through this amazing Internet thing - YOU ARE NOT ALONE?!!!!
-Kiki
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