Well i was here more than a few months, dedicated {so it seemed} to my cause. Then I was hovering at 200 lbs, the most I had weighed since i had lost all that wieght and maintained for years at 145 lbs. Then after 2 pregnancies 20 months apart, gestational diabetes and a lengthy depression I was then topping out at 200 pounds. I was devestated. And I tried then, but inevetably lost steam and choose to ignore the weight gain. I thought "well I can be a happy fat person, all the other areas of my life are good and under control. I'll just accept my body the way it is." But from then to now I've gained another 15 lbs
. I weighed offically for the first time in a year, all that ignorance made me even more fat. I'm tired of closing my eyes, I'm tired of trying to make myself invisable because I'm ashamed to be seen. Most of all, I need help and support from people who will see the person I am instead of the body I've become.I'm sad but I'm ready to happy again. I'm currently figuring out a longterm lifestyle change that is going to fit me and that i can sustain. Here's what I've come up with so far....
1.quit drinking soda
2.proper portion sizes {classic overeater}
3.daily excersize in any form
4.take vitamans
5.incorperate IF into my life
My goals have changed, I would like to be 160 lbs. A weight I'm comfortable in and if i reach that goal and feel the need MAYBE I'll keep shooting for 140 lbs, but I don't need to. This is a battle I'm ready to take on for the long term. By this time next year I WILL look into the full legnth mirror and look like the person I am on the inside. Thank you for listening. Kate
New....Again
This is as good a starting place as any. I don't like to think of it as starting over because that's an indirect way of acknowledging you got off track when what you need is a truly, truly fresh start.
Dhani 
