Hello all!
My name is Victoria, I am 29 and a momma to two girls ages 8 and 6.
After many years of yo-yoing and frustrations and depresssions, I have decided to get this over with already. My sister is getting married in November or 2011, and though she just got engaged on July 4th almost every night since than I have had some sort of dream/nightmare involving me being the "fat girl" that ruins the photos (the other 4 girls are all healthy/thin), or the bridesmaid no one wanted to pick but had to because she was family. My mom who is an avid scrapbooker even popped into my dream telling me I couldn't be in the wedding because she couldn't scrap the photos if I was in them.
Though I know the real reason I should be losing weight is for myself, and my children, I am using this year and 4 months to make me do it, because honestly I refuse to be the fat one! My sister was distraught over my thoughts and told me I was crazy and that I didn't have to do a thing about it if I was this stressed about it, that she would just let us pick flattering dresses for each body type as long as they were in the same color scheme, but I told her I wouldn't ruin her wedding photos! LOL
I am a very short 4'11'', I haven't weighed myself recently because honestly I will probably cry, but I am estimating at around 250

. I want to lose a minimum of 100 lbs, anything else that feels like coming off in the long run can feel free to do so. I don't know my measurements, but though I am heavy all over I somehow manage to carry an hourglass frame, my arms and legs are thick, and my chest and backside are big (thankfully my behind is rather firm somehow, and my chest has been large even from before I was heavy/overweight) But, my waist is rather small in comparison to the rest of me. I will be brave and weigh and measure myself tonight. I know I have a loooong road ahead of me but besides the wedding, I am tired of being tired, achey and sad all the time. Thank you for this wonderful forum and for the inspiration found here! Wish me Luck I am going to NEED IT!