My turn to say "hello"
Hi, everyone!
To start off with, my name is Megan. I am 22 years old.
A couple months ago, my long-term boyfriend said that he'd like us both to lose weight. He only has about 30 pounds to lose, and I have, well...a lot more than that. At first, I was upset. I felt like he no longer wanted me because of my exterior, but when I talked to him about it, I understood. He wants me to be healthy. I don't have any physical problems now, but my weight has already taken a toll on me emotionally, and if I don't fix it now...it WILL end up taking one on me physically, as well. He wants us to have an active future together, and he's afraid if I continue to gain weight, that may not happen. Before you think he's a shallow guy and to lose him, he's not at all. It's taken me a while to finally accept this, but he's RIGHT!
I have struggled with my weight my ENTIRE life. I was born prematurely and weighing in at 2 lb 11 oz, so my entire infancy and into my toddler years, I was forced food. The more food, the better. It caught up with me, and I started gaining weight to the point of being overweight in about 2nd grade, and it continued from there. During high school, I reached obesity. I was bulimic for the last 2 years of high school and first of college. Yes, an obese bulimic can happen. My weight yo-yo'd, and I eventually got help for my eating disorder. Four years later, and I am still struggling with food, but instead of purging, I just binge all the time, and now I am topping the scales at a whopping 300 lb on my 5'4 frame. I have gone on many a diet and failed them all.
There is no more failing. I will not allow it. The only thing is that I need support, and I'm hoping I can get it here. That is where I got the idea for my username, this has to be it! I am tired of hating myself because of my weight and putting my health in jeopardy.
I graduate college Wednesday, and have decided to begin my diet again Thursday, just since I know there will be a big "to-do" with my family graduation day. I have no telling what kind of food they'll have available, and I figured I might as well give myself one more treat. But after that, I will begin the final journey to conquer this long-coveted quest of mine!
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