A newcomer who can't think of a clever thread title.
It's hard to know where to start with this. I'm a 23 year old girl who has been a prisoner of her body for.. god, way too long. My mother is tall, slim, and blonde; my father is a little shorter, with dark hair and a genetic history of very, very big people on both sides of the family. I guess it's no surprise which parent I took after, if I'm posting here.
Even as a kid I was chubby, and I got teased for it mercilessly. I don't really know how much I weighed in high school; it wasn't until the past few years that I became acutely aware of just how big I was. My worst, I was 330 lbs at age 21 - this was after I had surgery to remove an ovary due to complications of PCOS, which both had something to do with my weight and the fact that my mother had the same problem when she was a bit older than me. Last summer, I got down to about 275, but I was doing it improperly. I wasn't exercising, I was eating no more than 1200 calories a day, and surviving mostly protein bars, water, diet soda, and beef jerky. While it worked, I was miserable. Still, I was losing weight. When my boyfriend and I moved in together I lost control. He is a fast food addict, from September until, well, last week, I enjoyed the greasy, bad for you food, until I noticed the scale climbing upwards again. Last week, I was 315 pounds. I'm down to 307.8 lbs, by eating much, much better and exercising for about 10 to 20 minutes, 6 days a week. I know it isn't a lot of exercise, but it's a start - I'm hoping to defeat my demons once and for all.
For tracking, I used daily burn, and I try to cook more or at the very least buy easy meals that are low in fat, high in fiber and protein, and with any luck, taste good, too. I'm mostly here for the same thing most people are - motivation, support, and maybe some ideas on how to love the body I have now, not just the body I'll have when the trip is over.
I almost forgot my reasons for wanting to lose weight! I miss riding horses like when I was younger. I miss going to swimming pools, because I'm too afraid of how I look in a bathing suit. I don't want to be another fat gamer. I want to be healthy and happy, forever.
Last edited by comrade snarky; 02-25-2010 at 04:46 PM.
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