I just had to share this because it is such a huge change for me.
I feel amazing!
Last night I set up a workout that would get me to the point of exhaustion. I knew I needed to step it up because the numbers just weren’t coming off the scale like they use to. I got my Wii Fit Plus set up, so as soon as I was done with my cardio I could go right into some circuit training. I then got on my Marcy recumbent stationary bike and decided that I could do better.
My previous goal was to do 8.5 miles in 30 minutes. I had recently accomplished 8 miles in 30 minutes, and for me that was difficult enough. This time I pushed it to 10 miles in 30 minutes. I began steady and strong for the first 10 minutes, but at that point I knew that I would have to go faster to reach my goal. This is when I realized I had changed, that I had really changed, and that my life was never going to be the same. Instead of thinking to myself, “it’s too much” or “I can’t do it” or “I’ll just get as close as I can because the goal is just too hard,” instead I said and thought and believed, “I can do this!” As I peddled at a speed of 21.1mph sometimes even reaching 28.6mph I pushed as fast as I could. I had sweat pouring off of me. I kept telling myself, “I can do this. I’m going to do this.” It wasn’t even a question of doing it. In my mind I’d already done it. In my mind I’d already lost the weight I wanted to this week, and I’d already reached my weight loss and fitness goals.
As time ticked down I pushed harder and harder. I did not let my labored breathing stop me or aching muscles get in my way. I just kept going. There were times when my body would give out, but I’d tell myself again, “I’m going to do this.” The clock was now down to 28:26 minutes and I pushed my speed up to 28.6mph and just kept peddling as fast as I possibly could, all the while saying out loud, “I’ve got this.” I didn’t ease up as I kept looking at the time waiting for the machine to switch to show me how far I had gone. It was going to be close. I saw the time count up from 29:55 minutes to exactly 30:00 minutes and as the screen switched over to distance I saw that I had over 10 miles. I had done it! Thats all I could think of as I did my circut training on the Wii Fit to wrap up my workout. This girl who was fat, and ignored, and hurt, this girl who thought she couldn’t push herself to anything better or to have anything better, this girl who was teased and told she wasn’t good enough for so long did it.
I’m not that girl anymore. I’m stronger, fitter, and healthier. I’ve pushed past the things that I thought stood in my way and last night as I was peddling my hardest I was also starting a new era in my life. I have lost a lot of weight, but now I’m going to reach my goal and become fitter then I ever thought possible. I’m not thinking, “oh I’ll just go as far as I can” or “it’s too much” or “I can’t do it.” Not anymore. That’s what that old me use to think. Now I know I can do it. Now I’m telling myself, “I can do this.” “I’ve got this.” And in my mind; it’s like it’s already done.
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