Hey ya'll! I'm a 22 year old college student from Texas and I am set to graduate college in August. I have always dreaded summer time, I hate wearing shorts and I cannot stand being in a swimsuit. For once in my college life I want to have the self confidence to buy a cute 2 piece bikini and show it off at the lake, pool or beach. All of my friends like to attend pool parties and I have always made up some lame excuse why I can't go. During the summers, I skip out on lake trips with friends bc I am not comfortable with the way I look. After all of this, you would think I would have the motivation to change but I don't. I just get more and more depressed and its awful. I have been missing so much class lately because I am so self conscious that I fell as if everyone is judging me and thinking that I need to hit the gym. When I do make it to class I sit in the very last row and try to make myself invisible. Its horrible and I just wish that for once I could get the confidence and motivation to do something about my weight so I can have the normal college experience just 1 time before I graduate.
OH, and I am a bridesmaid in my friends wedding in April and I would LOVE to show all of those girls from high school that I can do it and lose the weight. My biggest fear is showing up at the weight I am at now, and having that constant fear in the back of my head that they are all judging me and thinking that I gained weight since high school. Even if they don't say anything, I still think that is all they are concerned about (almost seems conceited that I would think that they are only concerned about me, but it isn't in a good way. If only I thought they were thinking how great I looked...yeah right). I know that I have said my fair share of people I haven't seen in a while and I know that other people talk so I know that the roll could reverse and I could be that girl that everyone is talking crap about.
IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME WITH MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES OR ANYTHING PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. I am desperate for anything...
Hey ya'll! I'm a 22 year old college student from Texas and I am set to graduate college in August. I have always dreaded summer time, I hate wearing shorts and I cannot stand being in a swimsuit. For once in my college life I want to have the self confidence to buy a cute 2 piece bikini and show it off at the lake, pool or beach. All of my friends like to attend pool parties and I have always made up some lame excuse why I can't go. During the summers, I skip out on lake trips with friends bc I am not comfortable with the way I look. After all of this, you would think I would have the motivation to change but I don't. I just get more and more depressed and its awful. I have been missing so much class lately because I am so self conscious that I fell as if everyone is judging me and thinking that I need to hit the gym. When I do make it to class I sit in the very last row and try to make myself invisible. Its horrible and I just wish that for once I could get the confidence and motivation to do something about my weight so I can have the normal college experience just 1 time before I graduate.
OH, and I am a bridesmaid in my friends wedding in April and I would LOVE to show all of those girls from high school that I can do it and lose the weight. My biggest fear is showing up at the weight I am at now, and having that constant fear in the back of my head that they are all judging me and thinking that I gained weight since high school. Even if they don't say anything, I still think that is all they are concerned about (almost seems conceited that I would think that they are only concerned about me, but it isn't in a good way. If only I thought they were thinking how great I looked...yeah right). I know that I have said my fair share of people I haven't seen in a while and I know that other people talk so I know that the roll could reverse and I could be that girl that everyone is talking crap about.
IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME WITH MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES OR ANYTHING PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. I am desperate for anything...
Picture yourself 6 months from now if you continue what you are currently doing...
NOW, picture yourself 6 months from now if you change your habits today and stick with it. Think of the confidence, think of how your whole life will change just by making steps to change today.
You can do it. You need to convince yourself that you can do it. What I told myself was "being overweight is no longer an option." You can do this.
You joked about being "conceited", imagining that people were always thinking about you and judging you, but I think you hit on an issue here with that comment. As odd as it sounds, you are being self-centered, but in a negative way towards yourself. You are so worried about what other people are thinking about you, but the truth is, all of those other people are focused on their own issues and are not thinking about you nearly as much as you think they are. I am hoping that I am coming across in a reasurring, soothing tone, and not a harsh, critical one. I hope that this observation brings you some peace, at least with the worrying that you do about what others think.
Besides, I've seen it said on these boards that "What other people think of me is none of my business". It seems as if the worrying about others is just another thing dragging you down and keeping you from making changes. Decide you are going to do this for yourself, and not just to keep other people from talking about you. I wish you the very best in your journey.
Last edited by gardend1va; 01-19-2010 at 02:57 PM.
Hey girl...welcome to the boards! You have make a step in the right direction!Now get ready to take your second step, then your third and fourth etc. Start slow and believe that you can do it! How much weight do you want to lose?
Make small changes at first until you learn what works for you.
Oh love, I can really relate to what you're feeling, I sometimes have a real problem with comparing myself to others.
The truth is (and gardendiva already mentioned this) no one is judging you the way you think they are. Most people are just getting on with what they're doing and may not even notice you. It's hard to believe that because it's something you're hyper-sensitive about, but it really is true! Please, please, go back to classes!
Sit up the back if it makes you feel better, but most people in your class are just there to learn and take notes (like you are!), not to look around and judge you. I just joined a big gym a couple of weeks ago and I was SO SHY about going (even though I really need to!) because I thought everyone would think things about me when I turned up... stupid things like how they'd feel better about themselves exercising when they saw how unfit I was. The truth is that none of this really happened. Everyone has been really encouraging and kind. I even did a couple of classes with LOTS of people and they were all funny and nice. I think people are mostly friendly, and in some ways, it's unfair to assume they think the worst of you.
Your old friends will probably just be excited to see you after so long, and if they think anything other than that, then these girls are not really your friends. It sounds like you are really struggling with this and it is impacting on you living your life... is there a school counselor you could go and talk to? My university has one available for free from Student Services... maybe you could check that out if you need to, it's certainly been a big help to me!
Good luck and keep at it, April is a few months away - think of all the progress you could make by then!
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