TIARA, I sense the frustration and disappointment in your post and I can definitely relate. For me, getting started was incredibly hard with many challenges. Seriously. However, I realized somewhere in my mind that I just had to do something because putting on more and more weight seemed to have no end in sight and I felt as if I was losing myself as a person (a bit dramatic, but that's how it felt). Do you know what has helped me? I tried to have one good day. It sounds simple, but it really can work. Just think, if you can have one good day, then maybe after that, you can have another? That's not to say that this doesn't require a plan because it does....most success requires some planning. But, it's much more surmountable. I think you can do this but you just need to start taking steps. You came here and that seems like a great step for info and support. You've also lost quite a bit of weight already, so you know what it takes. A lot of people lose their stamina with their weight loss around this time of the year. Just do the best you can and try to get back on that horse. You can do it!