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Originally Posted by duqserb
Literally....I haven't been on here in forever. The holidays and all the crap that ppl have been bringing into work have basically undone me. I feel absolutely huge and am busting out of all my jeans. Christmas eve I ate so many cookies/sweets that after having gone to bed, about an hour later I woke in a cold sweat and was about to vomit. I feel so absolutely disgusting with myself. And on top of that I'm staying at my parents house with no access to any cardio machine and there's a few inches of snow on the ground outside making it impossible to go for a run. bleh Man how I miss the days of being a kid and just being HAPPY that it was the holidays and I got to eat all of my grandma's awesome food....now the holidays just scare me, make me anxious, and depress me because I always wind up pigging out. I miss being on this site....life is never easy I guess.
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I get how you feel! Good thing it's summer down here in NZ; I managed 2x30 minute walks over Christmas Day, but the last few days, I've felt like a blob that's been confined to the house; I'm itching to get out.
I miss both my grandma's and my granny's Christmas cooking; Grandma made the most awesomest wassal and the most awesomest eggnog. Granny made the best dressing to go with the turkey and the bestest ever red beans and rice (not that I ate it when I was a kid, but tastes change!). I never worried about eating too much as a kid, I just ate what I wanted even though I was F-A-T. If I knew then what I would be struggling with now, I'd never go back for thirds on bread rolls and butter and doberge cake and petit fours.
My dad and co wanted to do a video call today- haven't seen my family at all (literally) since 2007, so I had a two hour video call. I just about cried after I finished with them- my skinny-minny sisters said that I had lost heaps of weight(!) and my stepmom said I had definitely lost weight. I told my brother that he would have to get a webcam for my mom so I can video call her. I miss my mommy.
But it's given me an incentive to get to work on losing the last 20kg. I want to be able to surprise them when I go home for Christmas next year.
Then I spent the majority of the rest of the day planning out my weekly shop and meals, cooking hubby dinner, then cooking myself dinner.
Now, I've just made a batch of white chocolate blondies. No, I have no idea why, other than I really needed
something to do. I guess I'm going to have to have 6 of this batch for DH and myself (3 each) and give the rest away. I don't like having that kind of food in the house; it's too tempting!
I really cannot wait until tomorrow to get back to the gym and start undoing everything I did over Christmas. And tomorrow I'm cleaning out my kitchen- the pantry, the drawer with all the cooking utensils, the miniature black hole that holds all our junk, and under the sink. I want my kitchen to be clean and organised this year.
Glad to have you back on the forum, duqserb!! Hope to see more of you!
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