[AlexxusMich2]

Hi my name is Alexxus Im 26 been unsatisfied with my physical appearance since 2003. Been up and down in weight loss but havent gotten to my goal since I was at my goal in 2003. I started a diet blog but havent gotten the email yet.... Im single no kids 2 dogs *that lives with my 'rents bc Im too busy* full time premed student... SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL....

I want to lose weight bc
1. I want to feel amazingly beautiful again....
2. I love to shop and I have gotten so bad now that all i have are clothes from the size i want to be. My old size...
3. Ive been in the military for the last 5 yrs... and even though i maintained a decent weight Its not what i want to be...so ive been wearing sweats and tshirts for all this time...
4. I want to be pretty all day every day...
5. I want to be taken seriously. When your dressing like a bum... sometimes people treat you like a bum.
6. I am recently coming out of a broken engagement... Moved to a new city... to go to school and Im kinda homesick, broken hearted and stressed out from school. I want to be the person I used to be... The happy vibrant person always wanting to go shopping or go out and see the world and meet new people... Definitely no longer me...

My fam and friends all spread all over the states and internationally also.... They worry for me but I know Ill be ok. I gotta get through this transitioning time... realizing Im not going to be with the former intended forever... realizing it was him and not me... and falling in love with myself all over again.

Im hoping i can get some motivation and support from you guys, who are non biased and are just getting to know me....I know my fam/friends mean well but i cant deal with them calling every 5 minutes and if i missed a call they are terrified that i have offed myself.... yeah they ask me this all the time....

Im not suicidal im just going through a rough time... new city, no longer in the mil, no people here that i know, broken heart... just trying to handle it on my own and on my own terms....

Sorry this is so long... thanks for listening.... OH!

current weight 190 lbs
goal weight 130 lbs
A little history.. was 206 my heaviest in the mil... discovered raw food... got down to 187 and maintained...since 03-07...heart broken in june 09 lost 187-173 in about 3 weeks.... now im back at 190. I say 190 bc some days Im 190 and some days Im 187. Im still really depressed so sometimes i dont really have an appetite... working on that....

Time frame ? i dont really know.... i love to work out and i run like a horse....ive been a runner all my life...and i must admit i carry my weight well most people would never guess im 190 I find when i do try to lose weight... it comes off really fast....i guess bc i work out so much....

I want to move on and start a new life with the same me but with a different look.... self, I love you... and I just want to show you and i want to act like i love you....

Thanks guys for being here...

[Onederchic]

Welcome to 3FC and good luck with your goals.

Hugs
Michelle

[LotusMama]

Hello and welcome! I am glad you are joining us.

I wish you the best with your weight loss goals!

Cheers,

J

[PammyFl]

Welcome! Were all in the same boat together and we are here to help! Good luck!!

[leeway]

Hi Alexxus!
Glad to have you join us! There are lots & lots of different groups and forums - I'm sure you'll find some that will keep you motivated, inspired and entertained!

There are bunches of people here with more to lose and some with less - the bottom line is that we all have to do it a day at a time. The good thing is that we'll have lots of company along the way.

There are many here that have been (or are) where are you now and have felt the rollercoaster of emotions. Alexxus - you can do this - you are evidently a strong, determined and very smart young lady and from your photo, also a beautiful one ,too - I have every confidence that you will be successful in meeting your goals and being the person that you said you want to be.

I've only been here a short time myself, having NEVER been part of an online forum. What has been so eye-opening is how much it has helped me. Whenever I feel overwhelmed or defeated, I just log on and read some of the success stories, complete with their before & after photos - or read about others still dealing day to day with their challenges - and before I know it, the time has flown by and so have all the thoughts of cheating or giving up.

So welcome - you 've found the right place - join in by inspiring us and being inspired!

I don't think anyone here ever gives up on people!