[serendipity907]

Lately I have been enjoying eating without the feeling of wanting/needing to stuff my face. Most of the foods I would usually end up binging on have just had no appeal to me. My appetite in general has been very diminished really, something which I never thought would happen to me.

But last night I was feeling a bit hungry, but I had already eaten my dinner. I started thinking out the possible scenarios.

-Don't eat anything more and just go to bed early (Usually what I do, but I felt really restless and strange last night)
-Eat an old binge food like pizza/ice cream (Something I haven't felt inclined to eat for ages, and didn't even feel like!)

Obviously I ended up at option #2, or i wouldn't be typing this now .
I ate 4 slices of pizza and a few large scoops of ice cream within about 10 minutes. I then felt really awful and so exercised for about 20 minutes right after. This was cut short by a really awful stomach ache and feeling like it was going to come back up.
I ended up drinking 2 large glasses of water afterwards, then going to bed. This morning I woke up and decided to just stick to about 800 calories today, as some form of damage control, and drinking plenty of water. I also exercised a little harder too. So I thought everything would be fine, long story short I decided to jump onto the scale. 6lbs up!!

So now I'm sitting here trying to convince myself its weight from drinking lots of water, and the days food etc, but I just can't see it could all make up 6lbs!

I feel just terrible now, and I'm so annoyed with myself for doing it. Part of the progress I've made is when I do slip up, to just move on and forgive myself (Not drag it out into a 2nd binge because I've messed up etc). But the fact I didn't even feel inclined to eat pizza and did anyway, makes me so frustrated with myself! I just don't get why I did it!

So glad I can vent this somewhere

[keepnsane]

I am sorry you had temporary set back, but overall you are doing great. If you know that you are doing the right things (in general) then I'd try not to stress over the 6 pounds...maybe you are retaining fluid for some reason.

Anyway, it sounds like you really hated the binging experience, so I bet you won't be inclined to repeat it anytime soon.

I hope you stick with your positive changes & move forward.

I am stuck in binge right now. I feel terrible physically & I came here in hopes to find some motivation.

Binging is a real thing & I don't know why we do it either.

Good luck!!!!

[Mel]

The binge food couldn't account for more than 1 pound, if that. The foods you ate were high in carbohydrates and sodium, and most of those 6 pounds are water than will go away in a few days. For every ounce of carbohydrate, your body holds 3 ounces of water in your muscles.

Can you keep some apples, oranges, mini carrots and hummus for that "still hungry" feeling? It might stave off a binge. The other obvious solution is to NOT have ice cream and pizza available. I've binged on apples and raisins , but it's far less damaging than pizza.

Mel

[Rif]

The 6 lbs. is most likely water retention due to the sodium in the food. Check your scale in a few days, and it'll probably be gone.

This is just my opinion, so take it as you wish, but only consuming 800 calories the next day and exercising to reduce your net even further is self-defeating and is going to set you up for another binge cycle. I would recommend after having a binge to just eat like you normally would the next day.

Could the binge that you experienced be a consequence of accumulated caloric deprivation? I don't know what your calorie intake is usually, but I know when I hold my calories down substantially, I will have the urge to binge by day 4 or 5.

I am an extremely restless person, and will often have that feeling you described, one of being restless, anxious, ready to crawl out of my skin. Exercise sometimes helps me with this and shopping also helps (even if I don't buy anything, if I go to a bookstore and look around for an hour or two, I can usually get over it).

[serendipity907]

I'm usually eating about 1200-1300 cals per day, which might seem a little low for some, but I find I can eat more than enough with it. I have been wondering what to do about maintenance calories, but i guess that's a bit irrelevant!

I still live at home so I don't get total control about what is in the house, on the whole the foods pretty healthy though.

I really don't get why I ate so much, I wasn't unbearably hungry, I didn't feel like eating junk food. Maybe just old habits die hard I used to get some kind of temporary kick out of binging, but nothing felt good about this, so I think I can take that as a step forward

I am trying to stay off the scale until the end of the week now, not sure if I'll make it that long though.

I hope you're doing better keepnsane