What an awful feeling! I somehow hopped on the pity party train yesterday! I'm been trying to stay motivated and happy but just can't seem to do it.
TOM is lurking around the corner so maybe that's part of the way I'm feeling. The other part is my back! I'm happy that its almost in, but its just that darn back spasm that won't give way. Plus, I'm still coughing so that doesn't help. I'm constantly running to the bathroom at night due to the coughing and it doesn't let my back rest to get rid of the spasm. Ugh. I feel so out of control the last couple of days. Today, I have into temptation and indulged in a chocolate tart at starbucks (unfortunately, it wasn't as good as it looked). I went over my points and have no flex points till weigh in. I know this is a minor bump in my journey but I guess I just wanted to get it off my chest and move on. Tomorrow is a new day right?
I rant and rave! I think that's actually a good thing. When things are quite sucky, I embrace the suckiness of the moment. If I'm sick, I take care of myself, give myself permission to take the time to get well. I'm really worthless for two days with TOM. When the discomfort goes away, I'm back to my old lively and lovely self. No one else seems to define my life by those few days of feeling down, so I won't either. It's just part of the human condition.
Does TOM entitle me to tarts at Starbucks? Sometimes, not often. I don't seem to question the non-food things that I indulge in during those times.
Today, I have into temptation and indulged in a chocolate tart at starbucks (unfortunately, it wasn't as good as it looked).
We all indulge in things that we shouldn't from time to time. However, remember that the tart wasn't as good as it looked the next time. I've found that rarely is anything worth it when I really think about it. However, if I really want something I find a way to work it in. Maybe you should look around (without buying) for a really indulgent piece of chocolate and plan to use your flex points for it the next time TOM comes around.
We had people over for dinner tonight. Now, I cooked, so I could control what was available. However, at some point I decided that I'd indulge in some alcohol (not planned), but I'd left myself another 400 calories for 'whatever' after the dinner was over. That left me able to have a little wine, a little brandy, and two small chocolate cookies. And I was a little surprised that I ate up (but didn't go over) that 400 calories.
I think the thing that Cdn said, "remember the tart wasn't as good as it looked" is the truth about MANY MANY things out there. Case in point, I walk through the bakery section sometimes when I venture to the supermarket. I love the smells and the looks of things, but I know that it will taste like crap to me and to be frank, I can't eat most of that crap anyhow because it has dairy and god knows what in it. I see something and I go "ooOOOoo" and then I remember that with the way I am now, I'll hate it. lol. 99% of the time when I indulge that is true...it is rare I like something.
If you are a fan of dark chocolate, which has health benefits, keep some around. I love the stuff, but want to merge into raw food so I'm going to make my own sweet treats. When I'm on TOM having some vegan chocolate or something makes me feel good and it isn't crazy or a guilty pleasure. It just is something to take the edge off and I find that I eat a little bit and then I'm done.
*HUGS* TOM can suck...I'm currently in the "craving" mode as mine tries to start. I indulged in something last night and low and behold, I hated it hahahahaha. Never fails...
I can't believe how emotional I have been. I haven't like this in a long time. I'm actually really happy that the tart didn't taste good lol. I think I just needed to let out my frustration.
A BIG hug to you guys. If it weren't for y'all I would still be riding the pity party train!!!
I am a frequent rider of the Pitty Party train. At first I don't notice that I am even on the "train" again...until I notice people not listening to me.
I think we all ride that train from time to time. It is ok...just remember sometimes the Happy train is a better choice. I have a hard time with that.
Ever since I got sick back in April, I hardley ever eat sweets anymore. I sometimes crave them, but they run right through me. I have had chocolate 2 times since then..both times..was a mess. ( straight chocolate that is) I use to be a 2pm run to the candy machine grab a snickers bar kinda girl. Now I buy the Fiber One bars...while that are not perfect..they do have a little chocoalte in them and they fill me up better then a snickers bar.
As far as your back..I am sorry your having such a hard time with it. (HUGS)
I'm riding the train today too, mostly courtesy of my least favorite conductor, TOM.
I like Georgia's idea of indulging yourself on this kind of day (a non-food indulgence would be good--like a pedicure or an hour in the bathtub with a trashy novel or a great hot oil treatment for your hair). I think I'm going to put together a pity party basket for myself full of this kind of treat and when I have a day like this again, pull it out.
Today, crying helped, as did an hour of swimming, but basically I'm just watching the clock and waiting for bed and hoping tomorrow will be better!
Tippers in Maine
yup, im trying to get off the pity party train!
Rena
