One year later-- still plugging at it
I went in for my weekly weigh in today and took a look at my chart. I started going on 6/17/08 and weighed in at 184. Today I weighed in at 160.6 . I am proud of myself for losing the weight and being so close to a normal weight but am more proud of myself for sticking with it for a whole year without giving up.
It sounds cheesy but I really have changed my lifestyle, the way I eat, and the way I think about food. The most eye opening thing for me is figuring out what foods are high in calories and which aren't. After 22 years of watching my mother yo-yo diet and go from one craze to another, my view of food was totally messed up. I was always among the bigger girls in my highly competitive girls' prep school where anorexia was rampant (my first classmate was hospitalized for it at age 11). Unfortunately, I was also in denial about my size at least during college when I gained about 15-20 pounds.
Now I am very careful about what I eat but I also allow myself to enjoy food. I refused to give up drinking but try to drink things that are lower in calories.
It probably has helped that in the past year, I opened a clothing store and have begun to really think about clothing sizes and how clothes look on different people. I realize now that I'll probably never be smaller than a size 8 but my size 8 can look like a size 4 on a shorter woman.
Even at a size 10-12, my confidence has soared. Very few people comment on my weight loss because I think they know talking about it in real life makes me uncomfortable.
I still have 10-15 pounds to go. I'd like to feel comfortable enough to get a swimsuit that my friends don't laugh at me about (they say the one I have now is matronly)
I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing and enjoy life. Even when I get to where I want be weight-wise I doubt I'll change anything about my eating habits so who knows where I'll end up.
Thanks to this forum for giving me a place to talk about weight loss with people who understand. I don't think I will ever be comfortable talking about weight with my friends and family.
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