Hello, and welcome to the site!
I am 42, and started reclaiming my body a year ago and just a few lbs heavier than what you are now. It is doable. I finally decided that it is up to me to change my lifestyle in order to reclaim my body; no one else is going to do it for me. It has to be for me, by me, and I believe that I am worth it.
You can do this too, one step at a time, one eating habit at a time, one more new movement at a time...you can do it too. You have thirty pounds to remove, completely doable in a year at a weight loss of less than 1 lb per week. Set some goals, read up on how to do what you desire, make some plans and put them into action. See yourself thin, think yourself thin...believe in you 'cause you can do it, it is up to you.

Lou