It's been some time...this is not an interesting post!
Haven't been around for a while -- haven't needed to be, honestly. Got down to 127 and was happy there, and did it without trying (sorry, all, but this whole dieting thing is kind of BS. The counting, the journalling, the constant thinking, it never worked. I'd be a lot happier if I could figure out what DID work, though, it seemed to have just...poof!...happened).
I've spent the last 6 months happily around 127, but the scale's starting to creep up and I haven't had any desire to get to the gym. Drinking too much, smoking too much...generally not that healthy. But worst of all is knowing that my perspective is WAAAAAY off. I look at my body and see all the flaws, the soft bits, etc. I'm not wearing my size 4s because I think they'll be too tight. And this after gaining 3 lbs. I feel gross! More gross than is warranted.
So I'm writing in hopes of kicking myself into whatever gear I've been in the past few months. My asthma is out of control and I have got to quit smoking. I work at a bar and get free beer...this hasn't helped. I'm thinking that April might be a non-drinking month.
I've been rambling. Sorry to do so in this public place. If you've read this far, thank you, and I owe you one!
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