So yesterday, hubby and I were at Tims Hortons. As we were waiting to order, I thought to myself.
"Hmmmm... I have enough calories left for today that I could treat myself to a doughnut. I havent had a treat in a long time..... well, no, I am full from dinner still, and I really just dont feel like a doughnut."
So I ordered my tea, and that was it. Thats fine, I have been leaving out the doughnut part of our Tim's ritual for a long time now. Except I started to feel really down, and like I was missing out. I said to hubby "You know, I can afford one today, but I dont feel like one, so I didnt get one, and now I feel deprived. That doesnt make any sense."
I think this is a large part of my problem, and it just hit me in a very real way. A lot of the time, I didnt eat things because I was hungry or even because I wanted them. I ate them because everyone else was, or SOMEONE else was, or just because I could, and I needed to make sure I got my share. That's crazy!
I think I will be thinking about this a lot in the next little while, and I am glad that this became so real to me. I am sharing because I bet Im not the only one who knows what I am talking about. Any other insights?
My Tim Horton's epiphany was realizing that the low-fat muffin had almost 1/3 again the calories of the maple dip donut. Here I was getting the muffin to try to be GOOD, when I really preferred the donut!
I make a point of not even walking into Timmy's because I don't want to feel like I'm depriving myself. I can say no... I just don't like that i HAVE TO tell myself no.
Don't get me wrong, I still partake in the tim horton's coffee addiction, I just buy the canister's and make it at home.
Oh gosh I love Tim's so much! I try to stick with a coffee and a yogurt and berries parfait but every once in a while indulge in a 12 grain bagel toasted with light cream cheese. Mmm...
I'm very fortunate that I was never a big donut or sweets fan. Once in a blue moon, we might have those mini ones with the white icing, but I haven't had any of those in well over 3 years. On a very odd occasion (like 1-2 times a year) DH and I might have a muffin (me bran and him blueberry), but I stopped that because I became concerned that they might be using vegetable oil for the liquid in the muffins, as I read somewhere that this is a common practice in many fast food muffins. Like someone said, the muffin may actually have more calories and fat in them than the donut that is cooked in fat.
So, now we go pick up some lower cal BLUE MENU muffins and then go pick up our coffee to go; or just pick up the coffee alone, especially during the roll-up-to-win contests. We also buy the cans of coffee and make some at home. We just love the taste and the amazing aroma of TIM HORTON's coffee. Nothing else can match it, as you know ...
A lot of the time, I didnt eat things because I was hungry or even because I wanted them. I ate them because everyone else was, or SOMEONE else was, or just because I could, and I needed to make sure I got my share. That's crazy!
Wow, that's almost exactly how I feel. Usually the DH and the B-I-L (who lives with us) are the bad influences who make me feel as though I deserve a share of the junk, but lately it seems like their effect is lessening. DH used to have a problem putting weight on - in fact, at one point I weighed more than him and boy was that depressing - but his metabolism seems to have caught up to his age and he's sporting a nice little tummy now. That definitely helps when it comes to making sure I get my share because now I'm quite content that they share and my share be zero [most of the time anyway ].
Also, though illogical, I would sometime rationalize my having a total diet disaster food as treating myself for being so good on my diet and exercise plan. Totally self-defeating because then I would inevitably go overboard, binge on the darned thing, beat myself up about it for the whole week or so, completely fall off the wagon, eat crappily, not exercise and then be mad when I finally came to my senses stepped on the scale and noticed that it had gone up. Duh! What else could it do.
It's amazing sometimes how much the mind plays into our various issues with our weight.
I looove maple dip doughnuts. And seriously I have been to Tim Hortons at least 20 times since roll of up the rim has started and have not won anything! It makes me sooo angry hahah probably a little too angry
I've never heard of Tim Horton's, and I thought I knew alllll the high calorie, tempting places. Is it a chain?
I'm doing better to just stay out of temptation's way for the time being. Sooner or later I'm going to have to learn to go to those places and deal with myself.
and i admit i was a bit hesitant when i first came to canada. but thc never did me any wrong. although i've only ever had the coffees. except for one time. i bought 6 donuts. at once. and ate them all in one day. actually more like a few hours.
An epiphany at Tim Hortons. Believe it.
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