[CurvaceousCutie]

So i'm just having one of those days were i'm just feeling depressed. I am just tired of being FAT. i hate being the fat friend, the fat family member, I hate being put in the category of just being "one of the guys". I hate having to worry if I am going to fit somewhere and or ppl judging me when i go out in public esp about eating. but I am scared of getting thinner, because fat is all ive known. what if i get there n its not all its crack up to be. what if the grass isnt greener on the other side. will i lose friends and family cuz im thinner and they like the old me. what if i get to my goal n then i fail. what if i always see the fat girl when im at my goal. sorry im scared, im nervous, and wanted to rant n just get everything thing out i was feeling, you guys would understand. did u guys worry n question what ur doing? i know im doing it 4 the right reasons, but i just wonder sometimes u know?

[primaballerina]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down

You are not alone in feeling this way. I think everyone who is overweight on some level feels that once they reach their goal, all their problems will disappear (or at least the biggest one). I've certainly felt that way.
If your family or friends miss the "old you", then that's their problem, not yours. I hope that your family would be thrilled when you reach your goal, because it means that you can enjoy a long, healthy life with them!
As for your other concerns (getting to goal then failing and always feeling like the fat girl), I think these things will be a lifelong challenge. Try not to worry about the future- it distracts you from what you can do today to get to your goal.

You should be really proud of your accomplishments so far- you've lost a LOT of weight! You're amazing! You're allowed to have a down day- we all do- but don't forget the power of positive thinking

[mescelestus]

I feel that way too, I'm the thinest I have been since I was like 11 and still 50 lbs over weight. I just don't know myself this way...and I feel like when I am at goal weight it will take a while to get to know my new self. I also really hate being "just one of the guys" I have hated it since elementary school.

[ella13]

honey, anyone who doesn't like the new you isn't a true friend! What you are doing is awesome losing 82 pounds is a huge accomplishment. Change is scary and hard but it will be so rewarding. Losing weight won't fix all your problems but it will help you live longer and be healthier. You are probably just having a "fat" day. We all have them (size 2 models have them ) I bet you"ll feel better tomorrow.

[loveLauren]

I agree with Ella. Change is always hard and it's always scary but you'll never know unless you try. 82 pounds is something to be proud of. Really really proud of. Don't let one bad day get ya down, sweets. When you've met your goal, you wont even remember days like today.

OT: I saw you live in NE Ohio. I was born and raised there! I grew up in Akron and currently live in Newton Falls. sorry, that was really random