[gkalphabeta]

Hi all,

Last year I was on this website and it really helped me to drop about 25 pounds..but guess who gained it back?!

So I'm back because this is such a great community. I've struggled with eating disorders in the past and I'm really trying to stay away from that mindset, this place really helped me with that.

A little bit about me.. I'm a student studying mathematics and I work two jobs. So needless to say it is many times a lot easier to go through a drive-through and pick up a burger than actually consciously plan my meals out. I need to stop being lazy and cook in advance. I know that. I start school in exactly two weeks and I'm really good about what I eat when I'm not in school, but the big challenge will be when I get back into school.

Another issue I'm struggling with is that my boyfriend knows about my past eating problems and he's always worried about me. His mom and dad are extremely overweight and they always cook the "good" food..i.e. all the fat and greasy stuff that we all like to indulge in from time to time. So when I refuse to eat at his house, he thinks that I'm just starving myself again. So I usually get forced into eating dinner there and then I feel awful about it. My plan is to start bringing my own dinner or just fix something for myself and bring it so he sees me eating, instead of thinking I'm just not eating at all.

I signed up for a tennis class for the spring semester so I really think that is going to help, considering I love to play tennis! I'm really excited about it. I've also joined the gym at school so that I can start exercising. I used to be able to do an hour and a half on the elliptical so I can't wait to get back to that.

I'm a perfectionist so it's hard for me to cut the calories I consume to a reasonable level and not keep going down and down and down...hopefully others of you can appreciate this struggle.

I can't wait to get inspired again. I have been unhappy with my weight for so long, it's the ONLY thing that I feel holds me back from being complete. I am happy with myself, I'm happy with my accomplishments, I know that I'm smart, pretty, and funny. I just wish other people could see that as well.

But most of all I just want to be healthy and be able to walk up the stairs without losing my breath.

Thanks for reading, can't wait to make this happen!

[Bobiken]

You have made the decision and I can hear the motivation in you post.

You can do it, this is your year.

[Jennifer 3FC]

Welcome back! Good luck in trying to teach 'good' eating habits to your boyfriend. I'm sure you can do it, and together you can get yourself back to your goal in a healthy manner. Maybe you could cook some healthy dishes and bring it to his house for everybody to eat? Maybe they'll be inspired to improve their health if they can learn how tasty it is.

Good to have you back, please jump in anywhere you like!