[SakuraRose]

hello~ ^^, i am actually a member from a year ago lol, and i used to drop by this site often, until i finally stopped coming here all together. I've had a back injury to deal with, my dad passing away, and pretty much it was a year spent in sadness, and deppression. But, everything is getting better now, and i am currently trying hard to focus on school, and losing the weight i have put on my body, and just getting back to that original me that i've been wanting to see for 8 long years.

i'm going to drop by occasionally here, since a lot of you are quite inspiring, and are amazing people who are doing the impossible, and making it come true =3, so i'm glad to be a part of this awesome community, and nice to meet you all, as well as good luck to those of you who are just starting or moving along their goal~

as for my story, here it is lol, pretty boring though i warn you xD


I started out at 293.00, though i never originally weighed that. In 7th grade i weighed 140, but unfortunately my thyroid, made me gain quite a bit of weight without being caught by the doctors until 2 years or so. But i will not deny the fact that most of it is 100% my fault, eating junk food and snacks in school, going home then eating junk food too.

During the year my dad passed away and got heavily injured during work, i became so depressed and thought that everything was stupid, and nothing mattered anymore, so i let go of my life, myself, and everyone around me. I started eating, and it's funny, because i'm not an emotional eater, or someone who can usually just eat for whatever reason. However that one time i just let go and actually did eat, and let me tell you, i felt the consequences of my actions after.

I will never forget the days when i had to go to special parties, or family occasions, or even a wedding and nothing fit. And i would start crying and getting mad and taking it out on my mom, because everything was too tight, or the bulges i had were showing.

However after going through so many diets and trying practically every diet ever mentioned out there, yes that includes Weight watchers, south beach, bioslim, nutri system, everything. I would lose a couple of pounds, sometimes if i'm lucky like 10-17 one time i even lost 20 on nutrisystem, but gained all of it occasionally back. So finally, I just gave up trying to lose weight, and went back to eating junk food like burger king, mcdonalds, etc. practically everyday.

But then one day that slowly changed. I fell in love with an awesome guy, who i met through a community of friends. He saw my pictures while i was like that, and he still loved me anyway. From that day forward i got the courage i needed to take a big step forward, and start from scratch again. And that no matter how much it hurt, or how much i yearned for something, or failed, i wouldn't stop. No matter what. This time, there was no "lose and gain", but only losing.

I still look at myself in the mirror everyday and say "omg i look disgusting" but i've learned to love myself better, and realize that what took maybe days and months to pack on, isn't going to disappear in the blink of an eye. And that i am chipping away my weight slowly, and even though sometimes its slow and painful, and the results aren't fast enough, i'm getting there.

When i started out at 293, i went down to 287 then got stuck for many many months. I used to be a size 26/28 in Macy's/Jcpenny, and in other places such as fashion bug or Catherine's i wore like 1-2x in plus sizes.

now i'm at 263.00, 30 pounds lost =D, and believe it or not, in Macy's and Jcpenny i fit in a size 16-18 now, which made me so ecstatic it gave me the courage to continue my journey all the way to the end. Even in fashion bug i wear the 14/16s now, and yeah it's still plus size, but i'm getting to that size 8 i want!!

another big plus, is going to my local gym, which has made my journey a joy to make, it's fun, exciting, pumps you up, and burns that fat!!

anyway, that's my story, and i shall be updating it occasionally with how i'm doing along the way =D.

[chick_in_the_hat]

on all the positive changes you have made for yourself!!

Glad yer delurking!!

[jamsk8r]

Welcome back! WTG on your weight loss so far!

[mandalinn82]

and congrats on your losses so far!

Have you settled into a spot yet? We have groups by amount to lose, age range, and almost anything else you can think of. So find a spot, settle in, and keep going.

Can't wait to get to know you better!

[SakuraRose]

ty very much ^^, you're all very sweet, and no i haven't found a certain spot yet, but thanks for letting me know, cause now i'll look into it =D

ty again!