Reaching out
I debated on whether or not I should post as I feel so melancholy this evening. My sudden 30 pound (in 3 month) weight gain is ruining my life. People who haven't seen me since the summer and running into me now, well... the reactions are quite obvious. That is an excessive amount of weight to gain in a short period of time and all I want to do is hide. I can barely even make it to work. Everyday, finding clothes that fit is an impossible task. It's DEPRESSING. I am so desperate to lose weight and just get back to what I was a few short months ago. I am an emotional eater and am very addicted to carbohydrates. I injured myself and haven't been able to work out for over a month. I have had many attempts to get my life back on track and lose this dreadful weight, but I can't seem to last more than a week. The last couple days have been horrible for me and I feel I can't let this get any worse. I hope that if I can write about it, maybe that will help me overcome my urges. I do plan on starting up a journal. Tonight is a complete write off as I'm eating butter-smothered graham crackers as I am typing this. However I will begin my journey tomorrow to being slim again.
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