Im so annoid with life and everything that surrounds it right now. I feel like the only thing keeping me going is my weight loss routine, and even thats hard cos all i wana do when i feel **** is eat!
I have work pressures, in so far as I have stuff to do and the manager refuses to let me do it at work, meaning my weekends are taken up by overtime. This past weekend ive worked 13 hours overtime. On top of that jobs come in and im expected to do them all - he wont budge off his *** so its me running round like a headless chicken trying to get everything done. Pisses me off big style and then he has the cheek to ask whats up.
I come home to my mother demanding jobs to be done at my uncles and aunties. Jobs Ive shown them how to do numerous times. Question is do they ever do anything for me? No. Last time I saw my aunty, well last twice actually, she didnt speak to me at all - so why the **** should i do anything for them.
My father makes silly jokes and chit chat at the table and offers me cakes several times in the course of tea! FFS if i wanted a cake id eat one wudnt i, now piss off. And he has the cheek to moan at me when i dont sound interested. Even hes one of these people that will only go out of his way to talk to me if he wants something. Never asks how I am or even how work was.
Boyfriend comes to mine, plays games on his laptop, sleeps and goes to work. Hardly any point him coming dont you think? Yer me too, just the amount he saves in fuel money is the main reason i can think of. He lives 52 miles from his job whereas im in the same town as it.
Its getting to a stage where I just cant be bothered with anything. The only thing keeping me sane and well going is my exercise. I am getting to the point where I wont be able to keep loosing weight like I am and will have to let go of exercise a bit so what am i gona do then?! I have no real friends, no real hobbies and what seems like no life.
Sh3l5,
You certainly have a lot of crap to deal with! I can sympathize with you, I know you feel overwhelmed. I can't really advise you on your boyfriend, because you know what he's up to, and you probably know best how to punish him.
About your boss? If you think he's getting a kick out of making you work on the weekend, the next time he delays your getting anything done, act like, "No problem, I can sure use the overtime!" That should change his tune. If you feel he's not doing it on purpose because he's just simpleminded, ask him, "How can we work together to get this stuff done?" Or you might have to go over his head to his boss.
When you're doing things for your aunties and uncles, is there any way you can ask them to do a favour for you while you're doing the chore for them? Like if you're there fixing thier computer or whatever, you can say, "Auntie, I brought my jeans, can you hem them for me while I do this?" Then they might not be so lazy and wait for you to do their stuff. They'll know you will bring work for them to do. I have no idea what to say to your Dad, is this how he's always been?
You have so many things to overcome, remember to tackle only one thing at a time, or you will get really overwhelmed.
Good luck! I'm going to save this thread so I can see what's up with you later!
I'm the same as you hun, if I get stressed, bored or just feeling down I just want to eat! but why not try to go out for a walk or something instead to clear your head? it always works for me
Wow, out of all of the posts you've made that's the only time I've seen you type like that, lol.
When you get the paycheck from working all of this over time, I think you need to spend some money on something to make you feel better and relax. Maybe get a massage and a manicure or something.
Re: the special favors, I know it can be tough with family, but if I'm overwhelmed and feeling that my efforts aren't appreciated then the next time someone asks me for a favor I say no (in a nice way). Sometimes you just have to let some things drop. Better it be a trivial favor than your sanity.
Hey, if you're just venting, I'm sorry to hear it's all piling up on you right now. Things get to us more at some times than others. When you feel yourself getting so angry, maybe try to stop for a second, and remember what choices you do and don't have, and disengage from other people's drama. Often easier said than done
I agree with Julie, somethings are out of your control, and then you just have to say - so be it, i'm going to make the best of it. And the things that are in your control, do your best to not let them get you down!
thanks girls....
its just work getting on top of me i think....
it was a nitemare again yesterday....
a change the manager made caused the whole of the network to stop working....
and he didnt know what casued it, nor did the consultant who was in all day....
i was expected to work overtime with ten minutes notice....
go back in when id finished at my appointment....
i got moaned at for sitting down for 2 mintues when they were on a fake fire drill to eat my yoghurt....
i tried to explain if i dont eat at certain intervals i start to go soooo light headed!....
but yer, im feeling better today....
weight has shifted this week....
done the job for me uncle, but only to get him off my mums back....
and im all sorted with me dad....
we went for a swim last night and sorted it all....
so grrrrrrrrr! **Warning** Rant!
