Ok so I'm a happy go lucky girl... and I love life. But my "rolls" get in the way sometimes! (yeah yeah... corney as ****, but if I don't laugh at the situation, I'll cry, and I HATE DOING THAT~)
SOOOOO, we got back from Disney World last night.... one week in Disney, we had a blast, but MY GOD I am worn out! My all time most humiliating moment happened while getting on the Popeye water ride at Universal Studios on Thursday. I sat down, grabbed the seatbelt and stretched it to its largest size, and could have died when I realized it wasn't gonna fit! So I threw it down, laughed it off with the other strangers riding with my family and I, then grabbed hold of the raft bar, ready to wing it and hold on for life! To my horror, the operator of the ride, STOPPED THE RIDE, and insisted I wear the belt, I told him the darn thing don't fit, so he politely whips out an EXTENSION! and hooks me up! I had to lean way over so he could attach the belt! I could have died right there... Of course I put on my happy face and laughed and joked about it, like I always do when I get put on the spot over the size of my rear end!
After the ride was over, standing there in dripping wet clothes, I looked up at my fiance, and then down at my beautiful daughter, and said thats it... when we get home.... we're going for gusto! Next year we're coming back and that belts gonna fit me! (LOOSELY!) Never again do I want to put myself in such a humiliating situation... I was mortified!
I've been battling the bulge my entire life. My mother put me on my first diet (through "TOPS" aka taking off pounds sensibly.) when I was 5 years old. It's been a lovely roller coaster since then. After trying every diet there is, I hit my all time high in 2005 at 309lbs! I was so unhappy then that I actually started avoiding social situations (which is SO not me!) Katrina hit in Aug 2005 and my life changed again... moved to a new town after loosing everything, and my nerves were so bad I couldn't eat a thing... I'd get horribly sick if I did... I found the only thing I could keep down was bland grilled chicken, saltines, some soups, and dry toast. So in a matter of 3 or 4 months, I dropped about 50 to 60 lbs! I started regaining my confidence again, and finally the nerves stopped bothering me.
Well, over the last three years, I've yo-yo'd between about 260 and 290!... I'm now at 294, not my biggest but creeping closer to it everyday scares the bejesus out of me! SO I'm making up my mind to claim my life back, and start doing things right. My daughter needs an active mom who appreciates life, so she can be guided and taught to be active and do things, rather than sit about in a fantasy world full of tv and movies. I want her to get out there and be active! (I come from a family of nothing but overeaters, there are no thin ppl in my family!... I'm ready to break the trend).
SO here I am.... any suggestions would be appreciated, but I do know the drill... eat less, eat the right times, everything in moderation, drink that water and lots of it, get moving, exercise is essential, don't eat too late at night, and if you feel the need to, do so lightly. (ie, water, fruit, a quick few bites of carrot sticks, etc). SOOOOOO the key is.... STICKING TO IT.
OH I might add also, I'm from Louisiana and a darn good cook.... which makes things ten times more difficult. I know HOW to cook healthy, but cooking naughty is always soooooo much more fun for me! lol.... I need to find a way to incorporate naughty with GOOD and make it GOOD AND HEALTHY! I'm sure there's got to be a way to do that.
As you can see, I'm a talker, random thoughts just keep a coming, I can write for days lol... so I'll just shut my piehole and leave it at that.... Time to turn these rolls back into beautiful curves
My ultimate goal is 150 for now.... I'm hoping to take it 10-15lbs a month... I think thats reasonable enough
Lots of work to do... today we have cheering for the football players (my daughter is 6) and my step son will be visiting later for a bbq and a swim (if we can tolerate the cold water), tomorrow is relaxing with family, and hitting up the grocery for healthy food items and seasonings, and Monday is D-day!
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! Looking forward to making lots of new friends and having/getting the support we all need here!
God Bless,
Lilbayoubaby
On the "ROLL" again....
! Sounds like you have a great attitude! Hope you stick around and post often!
.. that's why I've been avoiding amusement parks and planes for the last 15 years. I know that was awful, but I also believe you'll go back next year and it will be loose!