with both feet
Hello, ladies (and if there are any, guys):
My mother helped me find this forum as an alternative to meeting with an IRL support group. I signed up this evening and have decided to just jump in.
A bit of how a got to this point... I've struggled with weight control and depression pretty much most of my life. I've done LA Weight Loss, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, Deal-a-Meal, and The Zone (not in chronological order). Recently I got the complete Dancing with the Oldies collection and started trying to dance myself fit.
That was going great until about a month ago when I sprained my knee. I wasn't working out at the time... just walking! Without medical insurance the first thing I usually do when I'm under the weather is online research. I took care of my leg as if it were a sprain or ligament injury and after three weeks saw a doctor at Primacare. By then I was pretty sure I knew all I needed to know about the injury, but I was worried about the recovery time since I usually walk to classes and was still laid up.
He confirmed a lot of what I had discovered on my own - that I was likely to get knee injuries due not only to my weight but to my knock knees. I'd have to be very careful what kind of exercise I used from now on.
The whole event hit me very hard. I'd lost 10 pounds when I first injured my knee. I gained five back during my recovery. Between being cooped up for a month in my apartment, discovering that I had yet another complication in my weight loss strategy (genetic predisposition to being heavy, and a sensitivity to artificial colors, artificial flavors, nitrates and salicilates being the first two), learning that I might suffer repeated knee injuries after choosing a career path that would put me on my feet all day... oh, and dealing with some unresolved childhood issues... it's been pretty miserable.
Whew... sorry for the sob story. But I guess we don't look for support groups when we're cheerful and happy, do we? *hopeful smile*
Anyway... I feel like I'm starting all over. I'm aprehensive because I have lost weight before, over 100 lbs at one point, but have never sustained the slim. I'm just anxious that this is going to be another one of those occasions. It makes it very difficult to find the motivation to begin again.
I have to though. I have to slim down. It's not a matter of my appearance, though I know I'll look better if I do... it's really about being mobile, and able to do the work I really want to do... and able to dance again.
So... here I go.
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twilit, You're in a great place for support. Many of us have been where you are at, needing to be healthier to do the things we want to do. 
