Here I am...AGAIN!! :)
Hello, (warning.. its long! I know it's gonna bore you but please please bear with me...)
Here I am!!
I have been thinking about coming back to this website. I know I came here in fall 2006 and then stopped coming here. I guess I lost my motivation. Since then, I have added another child to the family. I now have three little boys to take care of. I am now 234 pounds (the last time I checked, tho which was around 2 weeks ago). *sighs* My mother and my sister are now on a diet. My mother is on the Atkins diet. My sister is on the Medifast diet. They both are trying to encourage me to go on a diet. My mom started her diet on June 9th. My sister, I'm not too sure but I am positive that it was in May or June. They both have lost around 25 pounds or so since then. I am truly happy for them. Now, I have been thinking that I REALLY should do the same for myself. My family has history of obesity and diabetes. I am just not sure of which diet plan I should follow. My mom is on the Atkins like I just stated, and she also told me to check out South Beach Diet. I checked out South Beach Diet and also checked out Atkins, and South Beach sure does sound better because it gives you more variety of options.
I do feel frustrated because of my body appearance. People keep telling me that I look beautiful and all, but I don't FEEL beautiful. I feel drained because of my three little boys. I also take care of my husband (being a wife to him). I want to make him feel GOOD that he has a "HOTTIE" wife, he says that I am still BEAUTIFUL to him but I want him to TRULY feel that way. I want to feel more upbeat about myself, I want to feel that I can fit through the small spaces without feeling like I would not fit. I felt concerned because I went to an amusement park and I ALMOST couldn't fit in the rides. That's scary... What if they told me that I don't fit and that I had to leave?!! I think that would bring tears to my eyes. I mean, when I think about it, I ONLY have around 95 pounds to lose! Compared to those people who lost at least 150 pounds or more!! I TRULY am proud of them.
So.. My oldest son's birthday is coming up on the 13th, and we are having his birthday party on the 16th. I think the 16th is going to be my last day of "diet-free foods". I am going to start dieting on the 17th. I must admit, it's a scary thought. That means I am giving up most of the foods that I love. I know I am not giving it up COMPLETELY, I will still have it, it will still be there but *sighs* it really is scary. I just know that I MUST start somewhere.
I HOPE that you guys made it this far. I hope some people will post comments. I would truly appreciate it.
THANKS!!!
Kristen
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back, Kristen! And congrats on your newest little boy!
I truly believe that mental barrier is half the battle. It sure was, for me. Good luck and I hope we see you around a lot. 
