My long term goals seem so far away and unreal at times, so I am trying to stay motivated. Here are my top ten things I am looking forward to
Please excuse them if they seem frivilous... of course #1 is wanting to be healthier...
#10 - Clean House --- It feels like there is no time to clean, but I know
it's because I dont have the energy to get up and do it
#9 - Fun Lingerie --- not too many colorful & fun bras & panties in my
current size!
#8 - Airplanes/Rollercoasters --- Anything more embarassing than
not fitting in the stinking seat?? I have to pour myself into the chair,
then pull down the armrest to try to lock myself in. UGH!
#7 - Crossing My Legs --- I miss doing that sexy leg cross.
I definitely didn't realize I would lose this silly ability.
The best I can do right now is an ankle cross --- not cutting it!!
#6 - Jealousy --- I am ready for my husband to get that jealous
look in his eye once in a while. Terrible, I know...
#5 - Peaceful Grocery Shopping --- I know it's paranoia, but it feels like
people are looking in my grocery cart and JUDGING what Im buying.
Sometimes I feel like yelling, "MY HUSBAND EATS THAT!!!"
#4 - Jewlery --- My arm looks like a ham when I wear a bracelet and
necklaces feel like they're choking me. Hard to feel pretty.
#3 - NEVER AGAIN HEARING THAT I HAVE PRETTY FACE --- ARGH!!!!!!
#2 - CLOTHES!!!!!!!! --- I am SOOOOO done with having 2 stores to
shop at. Im all around sick of having no options!!
#1 - Reduce Diabetes Risk --- Im scared to death of this
10: Being able to have th courage to change in the gym locker room instead of nipping into a loo cubicle to do it
9: Not have all of my trouser waistbands dig into me
8o not have the boyfriends friends tell me his type is 'curvy' when I know they mean fat!
7o get all the way through a gym class without stoping
6o be as fit as the boy so I dont feel like I am holding him back when we do stuff
5o wear necklaces..and not have a neck like a bull
4: to effectively have my wardrobe quadruple by being able to borrow all of my sisters clothes
3o pick up pretty dresses in shops safe in teh knowledge that they will fit and wont look awful
2: To learn to horse ride (bit too heavy just now)
1o look at my self in the mirror and be comfortable with what I see (i dont anyone is ever fully happy with what they see looking back at them)
Great idea!
10. Have my husband call me a hottie and actually think he means it.
9. Feel comfortable at gatherings and not feel everyone is watching me eat.
8. Be able to walk in a room and not find a place to hide.
7. Go swimming be it hotel, or public or gym.
6. Play some kind of orgainzed sport.
5. Have someone other my DH think I'm attractive. ( I have a terrible self image I hope doesn't sound like I'm being vain because in true I don't know if my husband finds me attractive)
4. Fit into cute and sexy clothes
3. Have energy
2. Feel good about myself.
1. Health
10# Not breathing heavy after the walk from the parking garage to my desk
9# No more back pain
8# Able to wear halter tops again
7# Thighs not rubbing together
6# Dancing to more then one song at the club w/out sweating heavily
5# Wearing high heels for more then 1 hr w/out feet dying
4# Able to buy bras from vs again.
3# Not dreading having my picture taken
2# Walking into a room and having heads turn for the right reason...and feeling that confidence I once had.
1# Better and more fulfilling relationship w/my Husband.
10. Going to my first college reuinion in June and looking like a whole new person
9. Fitting into all of the "goal" clothes i boguht the last time i was losing wieght four years ago, that i never quite made it into
8. being able to figure out how to maintain
7. Getting my Princeton class ring resized because it's already falling off my finger
6. Having more self confidence and being able to actually believe people when they compliment me
5. Starting medical school and being around people who never knew me fat.
4. Not staring in the mirror trying to figure out how noticeable the roll over the top of my pants is-- even when i buy pants that are loose or fit, i naturally just roll because i'm not smooth at all and have such a short torso
3. Going out with sam and having people notice me-- my best friend sam is one of those naturally thin, beautiful girls that has never really worked at it. Every time i've ever gone out with her, people hit on her all night, but her drinks, and totally ignore me. Last week we went for a walk in the city, and people actually started checking me out! It was amazing.
2. My mother not making those passive agressive comments about the weight i should lose anymore, even though she's heavier than i am.
1. Not being afraid to sit up while i'm in a bathing suit on the beach, because of alllll the fat rolls that will ensue that are smoother while i'm laying down. My family has a boat, i spend the whole summer on the beach, it's hard not to be able to sit up every once in a while.
my goals for the year...most are weight related, but some other random things:
10: tall boots. I want to wear them and be able to zip them up and not feel packed into them
9: walk around in shorts confidently (no lumpy leg jiggle!)
8: I want to pay off my credit card (350 more to go...hopefully by April)
7: I want to climb the height of the tallest building on the stair climber at the gym (working towards the empire state building's height right now, I'll move onto the sears tower next I guess, I need to make a plan for this as I am a bit fuzzy on which are the highest)
6: my beloved jeans I wore thru most of high school and college...I haven't tossed them despite their being worn through in some spots...I probably wont wear them out, but to just be able to fit into them again would be a victory!
5: get my cholesterol down (it is currently at 195...not terrible, but not stellar either)
4: get all my boxes unpacked from my last move! (my nonessential possesions are boxed and sitting in a closet waiting for me to get to them)
3: kick the caffeine habit...this one may be the hardest of all...
2: inspire my parents to take better care of their health
1: be comfortable in my own skin! feel happy about my appearance.
ElayneRae.. you are more than just a pretty face to me! I <3 you
My reasons
10...Fit into clothes I once wore
9....Be comfortable in a bathing suit
8....Be more comfortable being sexual
7....not having my belly ring dig into my top roll.. hahaha..
6....buying new fun clothes
5....Getting "holla'd" at
4....Feeling confident
3....Staying active with my DBF
2....Being able to be a cool healthy fun mom when I get to have kids
1....Being as healthy as I can possibly be
What a fabulous idea!
10) To not want to crop any full length pictures of myself!
9) To walk into a room and not be self conscious that everyone is staring at my gut!
8) To buy nice girly undergarments
7) To be under 200 lbs!!! That will be a huge marker for me.
6) To be passed that whole "WOW you are losing weight" stage and just be able to relax
5) To fit into nice clothes at the mall.
4) Have a New Years where I am not resolving to lose weight
3) Have a physical where my doctor is not concerned with my weight
2) To have normal blood pressure
1) To look on the outside as good as I feel on the inside!
10. Not hiding when I see a camera
9. Not having to wear shorts over my swim suit
8. Throwing away all my body slimming undergarments
7. Being able to wear sexy thongs again
6. Keeping up with my son running around in the summer
5. Having to get my bridesmaid dresses taken in
4. Having my boyfriend brag about his hot girlfriend to his brother (who always brags about his hot girlfriend)
3. Being naked in front of my boyfriend (which I am very self conscience about and try to hide)
2. Making shopping fun again
1. Fitting back into my pre-pregnancy clothes!!! (that was 6 years ago, very sad)
10. To be able to go swimming and not wear a wrap around my waist to hide certain parts of me.
9. To be able to walk down the street and NOT compare myself to all the "skinny girls"
8. To go to clothing stores like Forever 21 and Wet Seal and actually find pants that fit right (I can cram into some, but I don't look good in them)
7. To wear a short skirt. I have always wanted to do that.
6. To not worry about my husband looking at other girls and thinking "he's looking at them because he isn't attracted to me"
5. To get dressed in front of the mirror and not poke at myself for 5 minutes going "tsk tsk"
4. To wow my friends and inspire my very overweight family to make healthier options too (I want to prove to them that changing your body can be accomplished, and I want them to be healthier so I can enjoy their company longer)
3. To wear sexy thigh high nylons and not have my thigh fat spilling over the band (I own a corset set that comes with those, and I look rediculous in them)
2. To have a stomach that's worthy of a belly button ring (I want one sooo bad!!! That is my ultimate reward when I reach goal)
1. To feel better about myself and appreciate my body for the beautiful thing that it is
10: To be able to count only one chin.
9: To fit into a booth in a restaurant, and not have to search for chairs with no arms
8: To be able to go to a doctor without the inevitable lecture, and have him listen to my complaints (right now, it seems like if I stub my toe it's because I am fat...)
7: I want to try running for fun
6: I want to be in the front row when we take family photographs, not hiding in the back.
5: I want people to see my eyes when I smile, not have them obscured by cheek apples (or are they cheek watermelons?)
4: I want to be able to see my private areas again, so I can do my own hair removal.. (sorry, TMI?)
3: To be able to get off all my meds
2: To be able to enjoy intimate relations with DH
1: To be comfortable with my relationship to food
Here are my top ten --- what are yours?
o not have the boyfriends friends tell me his type is 'curvy' when I know they mean fat!
I <3 you
