Hi folks,
I was doing great for the first few months, managed to stay binge free and eat healthy. But March has been tough for me (not sure why - a few emotional setbacks, but nothing major) and the last few weeks I've had a few binges
. Yesterday I had binged for most of the day and because I made the mistake of not throwing the junk food away last night, I kept it around and planned on a binge today as well. But I just felt like crap from the morning and kept asking myself "Do I REALLY want to do this? Am I really so powerless to resist?"
Then a little voice in me just said, "Look, stupid, no one is making you do this. This is YOUR decision, YOU'RE in control." So I tossed all the junk food, made myself a fruit smoothie (it was so good!) and a salad for dinner.
I've been going back to the binge/diet cycle the last few years and this is the first time I was able to take control in the middle of a binge and do something good.
I feel so much better (though still kind of crappy physically - hopefully all that fruit will do its magic on my system
) and I'm anxious to get back on track and stay that way just like I did for two months before all this happened.
And just so that I know I'm not just beating myself up - I did do my routine exercise (brisk walk 1 hour, 20 minutes resistance) yesterday and I did walk today, so I'm not completely out of it!
Tam
Battle of the Binge - and I Won!
