I was collegebride last yr, new sn
So, last year I was on 3fc. I probably came here consistently from August 2006 till about January 2007..or somewhere around there. What can I say..I let my schedule get to me & did not make time for 3fc..which I should have. Since last year, I have been working out, but not consistently at all. I make a lot of excuses as to why I shouldn't go. I am a full time grad student, so I always leave homework to the last minute so that it seems as though I never have time to workout. I am 23 and I am getting married June 20, 2008. I have been avoiding trying on a wedding gown. That should be a very fun thing that I should look forward to, but at the moment I am not. I am 5 foot 4. I probably should be around 130 pounds. I have not weighed myself lately but my guess is that I am about 220. And yes, I know someone will tell me that I should be weighing myself, that is the first step. What can I say..I am scared. I have been very very stressed about some issues with my FI's family and that has been my excuse to eat a little crappier and not weigh myself..since I was sad. I am mostly out of that now. I realized today though, when my sister asked me when I am going to try on wedding dresses..that I shouldn't have to avoid this. It is not that I just want to look beautiful for my wedding..it is so much more than that. I have been so tired lately, I would like to have more energy. Its been harder to find clothes lately, that sucks. I feel bad when I look at myself in the mirror sometimes. I want to be able to have fun and take part in any physical activity without worrying about how I look. I have lost weight like this before. I used to be overweight most of my life. Mostly because food was love and entertainment in my family. Many members of my family had bad eating habits. My mom and grandma always went up and down in weight. When I was 16, I started getting more involved in things. I joined crew (rowing) and volunteereed at a camp for a week. Before those activities, I gave up beef, pork, pop, chocolate, and a whole bunch of other things for lent and stuck to it. <--that is what really helped me. I continued to eat like that till about 18, although i did gradually eat beef more frequently..but still not much. Then I came to college (we are talking 2003 here folks). We did not have a very appetizing healthy selection in the dorms. The unhealthy food looked better and was cheaper.I started eating all that crap again. When I had lost the weiight in high school, I rowed and then when I stopped doing that my sr. year I worked out regularly. Well the rec on campus was all the way across campus and I could not regularly find friends to go with..so my extra physical activity stopped. From that point on, I gradually gained all the weight I had worked off in high school. In the beginning oh my sophmore year of high school, I was probably about to the weight I am now. By my jr year, I was down to 130. Since about my third year in undergrad, I have been trying to lose weight. As of yet..I have not stuck to anything and have not had any success. Now I know that it is probably impossible or unhealthy to get to 130 by the time that I get married...but starting now I would like to vow to myself to take my health seriously. I really think I am this time! I've had enough!
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back! It's tough, but your health should be your top priority! You do have a lot going on, but eating healthier will only HELP you! At the very least you may not feel quite as exhausted or sluggish. 
