[Outland]

My name is John I'm 29 I'm 6'2" 350lbs. I live in Maryland

I've been big all my life even at age 5. I was wearing hand me down from my 10-year-old cusion.

In 2000 I spent a week in ICU and 3 weeks in a wheelchair learning how to walk again. I spent another 3 months in rehab regaining streight. 3 months before that I was 295 lbs could lift 300lbs and worked with 80 lbs normally at work. I have a disease called Poly-myo-sites. Basically my immune system attacks my muscle issue it went as far as attacking my heart and my kidney's nearly failed. This disease normally strikes women and after the age of 55. I was 22. I couldn't lift my arm against gravity was how weak I was.

I'm on meds to control it now and I'm doing well. However one of the meds predaizone (spelling) for all its benefits is a bad drug. An has help in me gaining even more weight that along increase healing times and easier to hurt myself has made physical activity hard.

Through my insurance I've seen a nutristist (spelling). We did a BMI and I know I have 211 lbs of active issue and 138 of fat. I have a diet and made changes in my life style but I still find myself cheating myself, I can't say no to myself. I have been walking for 30mins I'm up to around 3500 steps. But I haven't walked in 2 weeks and can't seem to motivate myself to get up early and go walk. I do 20 push-ups and 50 crunches I hadn't done those for 2 weeks either just started again yesterday with them. I had been doing great for about 6 to 8 weeks.

I'm the same weight as my grandfather when he did at age 55. I use shows like big medince to try and motivate me. But it doesn't for long.

I just feel like I keep slamming into a steel wall. None of my friends are big as am. They are happy for me yet they ask me finish off the food so they don't have to put away leftovers. An they look puzzled when I say no now.

I'm just an outlander which has brought me here in hopes meet people and learn ideas to help myself so I can hit 265 lb


So Hi!

[tomandkara]

Hi John! I'm so sorry to hear about your medical problems. You certainly haven't had an easy time of it.

Sometimes it's very hard to change your lifestyle, and a system of support like you'll find here should help you out. Dig down deep. You are doing this for yourself because you deserve it. You can resist the temptations. It is hard, but you are able to do it. I'm glad you were able to see a nutritionist and that you have a diet. Maybe you need more variety? Would you be able to go back and see if you could work out an eating plan that has more foods you enjoy? What if you kept a chart of your weight progress and exercise progress so you can see what great steps you're taking?

Good luck! I'm sure you'll find a niche here on the forum!

Kara

[sockmonkey70]

Hi there John! It must be frustrating to gain more weight from the medicine that's supposed to help make you better! I wish you the best of luck, and hope you find a niche here at 3FC that will help motivate you. I know this place is why I have been going almost 4 months strong, making life changes one at a time! You can do this! You just have to get your mind in a positive place, and understand that losing this weight is possible. It may be harder for you, but think about how much greater the achievement will be WHEN you lose the weight!

[NotTheCheat]

John – Welcome to 3FC! I have always been heavy too – ever since I was little. I can’t imagine what you have been through with your medical condition and it must be really hard to be on a drug that helps that but then makes it easy to gain and hard to lose.

I try sometimes to get up early to workout, but I am not a morning person. If you have trouble getting up in the morning could you do something right after work? I go straight from my office to the gym and I find that works great for me. Whenever I try to fight my basic tendencies they usually win. I have found that trying to work with my issues is so much easier.

Figuring out why you can’t say no to yourself is difficult but key. Do you know why you have trouble saying no? Of course it can be a combination of things. Food becomes so much more than mere sustenance. I gravitate towards eating when I am stressed and want to soothe myself (plus a bunch of other reasons). A lot of people eat out of boredom. For me, finding out what triggers me has been really helpful so that I can find other ways to deal with whatever is bothering me.

This is a great place for support. Don’t let all the women scare you away. There are a few guys hanging around here and there.

[Azure]

Hey, John! Don't get discouraged--you can accomplish anything you want to. I've had experience with prednisone myself--I was on it for a little over a month when I was 14 and I gained 30 pounds in the space of a month--literally looked and felt like I blew up. But, when a different specialist said I never should have been on it in the first place, I was weened off of it. I was an insomniac, moody and got these awful zit-like bumps on my chest and back...pretty bad side effects for a drug that only masked the problem. I have Ulcerative Colitis, by the way--it's also an immune-deficiency disorder. But Prednisone was bad news for me, so I'm sorry to hear that you're on it...

I can't really talk, as I'm also feeling unmotivated about exercising at the moment--but I can say that it's easier when you have someone to help you. Do you have someone who could be your gym or walking "buddy", to keep you accountable? That might be a good place to start Once you set your mind to something and believe that you're good and worthy enough to do it, you can accomplish what you want to achieve.

[Outland]

Thanks for the warm welcome. I was kind of worried I'd be told you're a guy get lost lol. Today was a good day I didn't cheat and I told myself no and I stuck to it.

[sockmonkey70]

Way to go! Just take it one day at a time, and you will make it