[goinforthegold]

Guess I should post a formal introduction since I've been posting a bit.

I'm 32, was very thin until my early twenties when my horrid eating habits caught up with me. I've been 30-40 lbs over weight pretty much ever since then. This year I finally decided I wanted to be the hot chick again and so the first of March I started walking and watching my calorie intake.

So far I'm down 35 lbs and feeling better. Though, I really think I have a screwed up body image. I think at 153 I was delusional about how fat I was b/c now at 118, I still can't believe how fat I look most days. Actually, I've decided, I don't need to lose weight..I just need to gain some height!!!

I've just had two really bad binge days which stinks b/c I thought I had been doing this long enough that those bad habits were behind me. *sigh* Guess not. Tomorrow will be better. Stupid summer...it's making me want ice cream all the time!!!

[sockmonkey70]

Don't despair. We all have bad days. I think you have done an awesome job losing weight! That is a PERFECTLY reasonable weight for your height!

You might want to check out the maintainers section of the forum, they are a great bunch of chicks!

[aymster]

I agree, we all have those days, but just jump back on the wagon and don't look back! Keep going and remember that you are important and being healthy is important!

[goinforthegold]

Thanks guys. I did get back on the wagon yesterday and am actually showing a loss today. Phew. Didn't mess up too badly.

And ya, I know I'm at a healthy weight for my height now but I want to be thin...I still have a belly and rather large legs. Since I've worked this hard I may as well look really lean and fit...right? LOL The weight is not being as nicely distributed as it was when I was this weight in my early twenties. LOL

Anyway, thanks again for the welcome!

[tomandkara]

AH! Ice cream! I logged on here because I'm trying to avoid going in the freezer for some and you brought it up!!!! Curses.

Kidding, of course. About the curses, not wanting ice cream. I still want ice cream.

Welcome to the board! I'm sure you look fabulous!

Kara

[goinforthegold]

LOL, ice cream may very well be my downfall. It's barely nine o'clock in the morning and I woke up wanting it. *sigh* It's nutritious right? Lots of calcium...and er...um...well there has to be some other nutritional benefits. I can seriously talk myself into anything.

[tomandkara]

That's my problem, too. The internal reasoning... We'll have to work on silencing the voices together! Maybe we can get our two demons off our shoulders and THEY can go have ice cream while we live healthy, smart lives?!

Kara