Hi. I'm Christy. I posted my profile in that thread, so this is only my second post here. I just found this site/forum today. I guess that old saying "today is the first day of the rest of your life" is kinda appropriate, as today is my first start day.
I'm 30, and until recently had kidded myself about how much I weigh and how much I could hide in clothes. A few weeks ago, my husband and I went to the tour of the Broadway play Wicked. Since it's been a long time since we went out somewhere nicer than a local game or movie, we went all out dressed up a little nicer. Since it had been a while since we had a pic taken of us together, we stopped on the way at my mom's house and she took some shots of us. When I saw them, I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. I was mortified at my appearance! (What is it exactly that makes a mirror not as shocking as an actual picture? or is that just me?) Anyway, I knew my weight had crept up to 300 (I HATE typing that.) but I thought "well, you don't look too bad, etc." but the truth was in the pictures telling me differently. My weight has bothered me for a long time, but it was always "I feel fat...I should do something about it....I'll worry about it later." Well, later is now. I'm tired of feeling so bad about myself. I'm tired of not believing it when my husband tells me I look pretty. I'm tired of having no energy. I'm tired of feeling tired. I'm tired of having to buy the ugly industrial bras instead of the cute ones! (Yeah, that last one was admittedly vanity.) But, the point is, I'm going to do something about it rather than just whine. As of now, I'm not really planning to do any specific diet or eating plan. I'm just going to cut out the crap I've been putting into my body and exercise more. I have the 6 week body makeover kit, and I tried it last summer. I did lose weight, but I wasn't happy. Part of my problem with that was I stuck to the "suggestion" menus rather than make my own from the different food lists. I did that because I was too scared to stray from the suggestions. If I do decide to try the 6 week program again, I'm going to read and research beforehand so I'm not stuck eating the same thing over and over again.
Anyway, that's a little about me. Like I said in my profile, I'm not a very patient person. I know I didnt get to be 300 pounds overnight, and I'm not going to reach my goal overnight either. But I get discouraged too easy most times. I know that's going to be an obstacle for me. I may need a few virtual kicks in the pants to keep me going, and I'm hoping to get them here. One of my favorite songs from Wicked has a couple of lines that I'm sticking to: "Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap." This is my leap into a better life for myself.
You've found a wonderful forum where people are going to celebrate your victories along the way, encourage you, but will also give you a kick in the backside when you need it.
Good luck! Looking forward to learning more about you
Nicole
Your situation sounds very similar to mine. When I was reading I kept nodding my head in agreement, thinking, "me too! me too!!" It's hard to stay motivated and encouraged when the scale is moving down so slowly. Having so much backup really helps, though. Everyone on here can relate in some way. You've already taken a huge step by admitting it and finding a support group. Like you said, the weight didn't pop on overnight, and it's not going to go away that quickly....but you CAN do this. Don't be afraid to ask questions and get involved. It has helped me so much, hearing other people's success and falters, knowing I am not going through this alone.
I'm so glad you're here, Christy!!!! This is a terrific support group and we're here for you. I can identify with so much of what you said. We can do this!
Great to have you here. I love when people post the "I need help!" threads so that I don't always have to admit that I'm clueless about so many things. And I so relate to the picture thing! My mirror lies to me because I don't feed it complete information. I only look at myself from certain angles and only certain parts of my body, and only when completely necessary. Not that I'm completely fooled, but... I am not brave enough for intentional pictures, though. I went to the Mall of America, and they take photos of you on various rides and offer the photos for purchase. I could not believe that the fat woman in those pictures was me! I should have clued in a bit when I couldn't get the safety bar on the roller coaster down without sucking in my gut -and then couldn't breathe for the whole ride!
Oh Christy, I am SO glad you found us!!! I think this place might be just what the doctor ordered for you.
Man, I could have written soo many parts of your post. By the way my kids LOVED the play Wicked. I didn't get to see it. Yeah, pictures really ARE something, aren't they? But it sounds to me as if you've really reached a saturation point and you've had enough (that's a good thing!) and now you're ready to do SOMETHING about it. Good luck to you. You most certainly CAN do this. And I look forward to hearing more from you and all about your progress.
Welcome, Christy! You've come to a very supportive place, which helps a great deal when you are trying to dig dip and make some life changes. You can do this!!!
Another newbie here...hello
You've found a great place to hang out.
You're really going to like it here, I think. I love it! Glad you're here and look forward to reading more posts from you!
