so i'm reading the 3fatchicks on a diet book - and there's a section where it talks about looking at yourself in them mirror.. NAKED .. and really looking at yourself.. and from what i remember the gal in the book notices her very curvy body with her hourglass shape..
okay. so this morning i take my shower with the lights on (don't ask!) - and i've been on ww and i'm down almost 18 pounds now and i feel smaller - UNTIL I LOOK IN THE MIRROR .. AND I'M HORRIFIED .. at all the lumps and bumps and cellulite and the whole thing.. i even turned and looked at my back .. I'M STILL SUFFERING FROM THAT .. THAT.. THATTTT.. EXPERIENCE..
now, i ain't going to eat over it - heck no.. i have to weigh in today after work.. hahahahahahhaa... but holy guacamole..
Honestly, I walk around naked after and before showers and there is a mirror right outside my bathroom. I usually will stand there and look at myself and various bumps and lumps. I've never had a problem looking at myself naked in a mirror. It is what it is My only hope is that I can improve it by losing weight.
I've always done this. I also take pics<thank stars for digital cams>, but once a month, I stand bared butted and Matt takes pics. Front, back, side to side. I knwo it sounds odd, but most of us, when we look in the mirror see a false image, either the one we want to see, or the one we've always seen. It's really hard for me to look in the mirror and be objective enough to see Me, without those extra 50 pounds I've lost. I still see uber fat chick instead of halfway done fat chick. It doesnt matter how often someone tells me how great I look, I just dont see it. With the pics, I see it.
We only have 2 mirrors in the house , in the bathrooms over the sink and I don't get to see all of me, when I walk in a store that has mirrors, I look away or down, because then I see what I really look like, I don't feel as fat as I am until I see a mirror. I look at the bathroom mirrors and know that there is too much fat there, but it is getting looser, and as time goes on I hope it goes away little by little. I want to buy a full mirror to be able to look at me and see what I need to do and be accountable for. I did this to myself no one else, not having kids, not being sad, or angry, but I did this to my body and now I need to fix it. So the mirror and I need to become friends.
Hang in there I am sure soon you will like what you see.
Nelie congrats on the weight loss!!! you are doing great. Just saw the numbers and you are an inspiration!!!
cheryl
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I do see myself in the mirror naked daily. Even so I find it a rude awakening every time. Plain & simple, without the mirror I don't Feel as fat. But the mirror makes it crystal clear that I am. One day how I feel & how I look will be the same.
Yep, I look in the mirror every day after my shower. It's tough. And Angi...I know exactly what you're saying! To me, my lumps, bumps, and hangs look the same as they did 47 pounds ago. My clothes say otherwise...but my eyes don't see it when I'm naked!
I've got plenty of lumps and bumps, not to mention wrinkles and sags. They don't bother me in the least. All right, maybe that's a slight exaggeration. You can't see a one of them in clothing. And out of clothing - it is a HUGE improvement from how I used to be. I love looking at myself in the buff now. It amazes me how forgiving the human body can be. The funny thing is, if I had never been 287 lbs and had the body that I have now, not the weight, but the body, I'd probably be HORRIFIED. But, I'm not. I'm thrilled to have this body. Perspective. It's all perspective.
I've got plenty of lumps and bumps, not to mention wrinkles and sags. They don't bother me in the least. All right, maybe that's a slight exaggeration. You can't see a one of them in clothing. And out of clothing - it is a HUGE improvement from how I used to be. I love looking at myself in the buff now. It amazes me how forgiving the human body can be. The funny thing is, if I had never been 287 lbs and had the body that I have now, not the weight, but the body, I'd probably be HORRIFIED. But, I'm not. I'm thrilled to have this body. Perspective. It's all perspective.
Robin, I'm right there with you!! Granted, my body still has a long way to go, but it has also came a looonnng way. And in clothing, I usually think I look pretty darn good.
I am not there yet myself - if I think I'm hot and skinny then I'm more willing to exercise and take care of myself. When I see how fat I've become, I get depressed and want to eat. Maybe one day I'll get there..
I go to Mayo Clinic for my kidney care and the hotels always have bigger mirrors in their bathrooms than I have here. It's interesting to see all the lumps, bumps, scars, birthmarks, etc. I would NOT want to do it every day though.
I do it every day, and some days "hey, it's not tooo bad" and others "GAK!!!!"
One thing though: when I exercise consistently, even if my weight doesn't move, I feel much better about looking in the mirror. I find myself standing up straighter, my muscles in my legs taking the place of some of the cellulite, and I just stare. But when I'm not exercising, when I'm feeling sorry for myself that I let myself (aided myself) in becoming as heavy as I am, then my shoulders slump, and so does the rest of me, and that is totally unattractive.
And from what I understand, no one is ever completely satisfied with how they look. Focus on what you do like on the days it's especially hard. Some days I just focus on my eyes (the only thing that doesn't get fat on me, lol!) or my calves (which, while big, are usually shapely).
I look at myself naked in the mirror everyday. While, I know my body isn't perfect and never will be, I'm much happier with it now than previously. I like to suck in my tummy when I'm standing there and wish that it would always look that flat. I definitely prefer my body in clothes. I have some days that I feel thinner than others and I'm more likely on these days to walk in the buff in our bedroom. Actually with my bra and undies on, I feel pretty good without my other clothes on. It's the sagging boobs that I hate the worst.
Since I started on this journey back in March '06 I have never had a full length mirror in the house. There is a mirror above the sink in the bathroom so I could see from boobs up but nothing else. I went out about 2 weeks ago now and bought a 6 foot full length mirror.....its the first time I've seen my body as it is now and first time I've truely had a chance to look at it. I mean sure I've been in shop dressing rooms but that was to look at clothes.
Its like I've been on a makeover show...or the show a few years ago 'the swan' where they unveil the 'new person'...I love it. I find its given me a renewed confidence and acceptance of myself. I'm actually pretty hot :-)
Looking in the Mirror!
My only hope is that I can improve it by losing weight.
