Heyy! Thanks for the replies and suggestions everyone, they have been really helpful.
Soo I;ve learned from that little binging incident: just as britomart mentioned, 100 cal packs are just not a great idea for me (the same is true of pasta, actually... it's a binge food for me, and even though whole wheat pasta is a healthy choice, I will overeat that too so I just don't buy it). I bought some really sweet fruit the other day, and that is a much better choice for me in terms of a sweet little snack during the day (I feel much more satisfied with a cup or two of grapes than I do with a 100 cal pack).
And yes brito, I do feel motivated by how far I have come, but I also hit goal last year (in fact I was 5 pounds under goal), so it's still frustrating to me that I've put so much weight back on and reversed some of that good. But the important thing is not to let that trend continue!!!
Since that first post, I have been doing a lot better with my eating. One day at a time, that's what I keep saying. A source of motivation came from a book I was reading the other day, about women in Burma who were working making fabric. When asked by a curious American how many hours they worked a day, they responded "whenever there is daylight... dawn to dusk, every day." And their wages? "two or three hundred kyats a day"-- less than an American dollar. And what happened to them if they were sick or injured? How much were they paid? They thought that this was such a strange question to ask! "Of course there is no pay for days not worked!"
But these women were not complaining... they were happy to have the jobs that they had. And when I was reading this, it dawned on me: I don't know the first thing about deprivation. These women can appreciate a life in conditions much more demanding than my own... I should at least be able to stay on a diet. I just need to change my attitude, because it's really not that hard.
Hope that story inspires you guys too.
