I was doing so well and it took nothing for me to fall off completely.. this is day 3 now. Yesterday I spent half the day POP and then killed it at night. UGHH.. I keep reminding myself that I'll never hit my goal and I'll just keep getting bigger and bigger but it's not working. Nothing is right now.

sorry for the rantt..

I know what you're going through.. I've been doing really well and not seeing results.. In fact, I'm seeing the opposite for the past couple of WI's... I got really mad last night and said "Screw it.. If I'm going to be gaining weight, I might as well just eat something that I really want to!!!"

The problem is that with this kind of thinking, we head into a downward spiral... While I'm still really p***ed off about gaining wieght for no reason, I have to tell myself that that's no reason to just start pigging out on fries and nachos.. Mmmmm.. Nachos.. But I digress...

Also.. Think about how you "sabotaged" yourself.. What exactly did you do?

One person's sabotage is another's harmless cheat.. One of my counselors said that over the holidays, not to sweat the small stuff like a cookie here and there, or a small handful of chips.. Don't make a habit of it, mind you, but if you give in once and a while, you can't mentally beat yourself down for it...

Nikki.. hang in there.. there is some environmental contaminant in the air that is making us all crazy.. I've had the worst week and have been in a rut.. joined the Slimdown challenge and gained.. what's up with that??

Remember that sometimes you will fall down but you can stay there or get back up. I have no idea what's going on but today despite my gain I was able to put on some new clothes and go out feeling good. A few pounds and a few bites isnt' going to take away the hard work I've done.. on the other hand if I let myself get stuck I can very easily start to put it back on.. and I would never forgive myself.. Take comfort in the fact that many of us are going through a rut with no explanantion and we are all trying to find our way back.. we'll get there .. somewhere we are going to be rewarded for sticking to our guns! It's impossible for us all to gain without wolfing down all the wrong foods we've learned to avoid. I feel like Dan that if I gain it should be justifiable.. if the scale goes up I'd like to know I got to chow down on a huge pizza and then i would have a reason.but it's not there it's just a test.
Stay strong and come chat with us other grumpy folks but stay on plan as best you can.

Love you!

Well said Kristen! Having the pizza with sausage and jalepenos sure would have been more fun than gaining weight while being POP.. But then again, the anger would have just been replaced by guilt..