Hmmmm...
You may not think so, but I believe you're actually in a good space.
I find myself in the same boat these days. I've made no progress at all toward my own Birthday goal [for a variety of reasons] and first I was depressed and whiney but now have simply gotten
PISSED pissed . Enough so that I found a program I think works for me and that I want to do and that I AM doing.
Somewhere in there I found myself asking "What do you want more than anything else?" The answer was to be content with my body. Then I noticed that I don't act like it was the most important thing in the world to me, given how I've been going about it. Duh--time to make a change in priority here.
I am just sick to death of this ongoing torture of failed diets. I want to integrate simple healthy habits into my everyday life AND I want to see some progress with my weight. I think this sort of "hitting bottom" is just what I needed to finally get to a no nonsense mindset. Enough whining around a mouth full of french fries, I can do this.
Bet you can too!
Happy Birthday to YOU!
Diana