There is no one here to talk to right now and this is driving me nuts so I'm sorry but I need to get this off my chest...
well I'm living with my boyfriend and his parents right now, and as some may know b/c ive posted about this before they don't exactly eat all that healthy here or buy alot of healthy food (or alot of food period) actually this is the worst it has ever been, my bf's parents havn't bought groceries in about 2 months, there isn't much left to eat...yet they want us both to pay $50/wk to live here....pathetic...anyway that's not the point....my bf and I went out and bought some groceries yesterday, mostly a few healthy things for me to eat b/c I really want to get serious about losing weight, it has been too long of trying and giving up constantly over and over again, I've had an exercise bike for 6 months and I havn't lost a pound b/c I'll use it for a week and then give up...anyway...I really want to get serious this time and actually lose this weight for good before I end up being 300lbs...
so we bought some grapes, strawberries, whole wheat bread (i ran out and i've been eating normal white bread for about 2 weeks for breakfast and actually got sick of it and craved whole wheat) we bought some other things too...anyway we bought one pound of strawberries in those plastic containers, and I had 4 this morning with a bit of light whip cream, and then I go downstairs tonight to go to the bathroom and what do I see sitting on the counter about HALF empty? MY STRAWBERRIES!!!!
my bf's parents are all like 'if its in the house its for everyone' but we KNOW they hide stuff in their room and living room, but when we put stuff up in our room we get in trouble and called selfish and ignorant. Well were TIRED of groceries never being done and when we spend money on food for ourselves they eat it...
I am just so sick of it, and it made me really mad, why do I even try!!? We spend what little amount of money we have on some food for us (well mostly me but my bf doesn't really care what he eats and he is trying to help me as much as he can to lose weight) it just makes me want to pop...
We asked to get our own fridge upstairs (so we could buy our own food and this wouldnt happen) but that isn't going to happen...apparently a fridge won't fit up here (yet they want to put a kitchen up here...WHEN they get around to finishing the rest of the upstairs) and they dont know where to plug it in (in all honesty putting a fridge up here would probably blow the breaker everyday...we cant even plug the vacuum in in our room, it has to be plugged in in the hallway in order not to blow the breaker...my bf's stepdad THINKS he knows everything about wiring a house *rolls eyes*)
Im sorry I just needed to vent..this and many other things drive me completly insane and it just makes me want to give up...