i totally understand also. when i was pregnant with my soon to be ex first child, my mother in law made it a point to tell me not to gain too much weight. that my hubby didn't like fat woman. well, let me tell you, it got much uglier. because i put on about 50 pounds during our marriage. now that we are split up, i have dropped 25 of that and plan to drop the other 25 and probably a couple more for good measure!!! then he can like me all he wants because it is too little, too late.
i wouldn't go to the reunion either. who needs to go somewhere and be reminded that you are not up to their standards. Screw them!!! stay home and treat yourself to a day out for you. go get your nails done and have a massage. you'll definately feel better about yourself alone than with them!!!
i'm sorry. i am so mad right now. because i know exactly how you feel. i always compared my self to my sister in law who had 2 kids and is still wearing a size 2 jeans. she is tall, tanned, and absolutely beautiful. i love her but i can hate her at the same time. and she has never been anything but sweet to me. but she represents everything that i am not.
anyways, have fun home alone.