heres a great big ol (((((*HUG*))))).
I feel you, trust me. I am at the place you are and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I am a nurse and I work in a extremely fast paced atmosphere. Latley I don't want to go to work.....
Here is a history... I had severe anxiety with some depression most of my life. In 92`, I had a semi-nervous breakdown, went into counsling and started zoloft. It did wonders for me. In 98` I went off of it because I felt so wonderful, I thought I had a grip on life. What I didn't know was that med was helping me put things into persepective and not sweat the small stuff. In 01` I had a major health scare and with 911, I was feeling anxiety again. I started on another antidepressant which made me more anxious. I went back on zoloft in Jan of 02`. Few months ago I stopped it again because of side effects. I went on the xanax route with ambien for sleep. I feel awful. My anxiety is ok but my depression is at an all time high.
I'm out of control with my eating which is a sure sign i'm on that road to losing it again. I gained 12pounds in the last few weeks, that is soo sick. I walk around grouchy, yelling at my teen daughters and pushing my husband away, which is another story...
I live with a very controlling, bossy, man. He wants all control.. that is another reason I feel I'm losing it. After 22 years of marriage, I'm wondering if I can live with this person the rest of my life. I feel squashed, I feel as if I have no rights.. yes, he is kind and nutruring at his own level.. but I feel he is emotionally abusive....sigh.. but that is for another day...
I think you need to see a therapist, counslor..etc... and start expressing how you feel..Keeping a journal is a great way to let things out..
know we are all here for you.....
[email protected]..
purple~~
I apologize for all the spelling errors.. this was written by a human~