I might put a little twist on the wording instead of saying "I want to stay fat" I want to say "I will stay fat because":
I have this obsession with food. It drives to the brink at moments I can not describe. I can go at something with a wild abandon that scares me sometimes. I find myself just whipping through a bag of chips in five to ten minutes and then licking my salty fingers. It makes me so made that I let myself get to that point where nothing but nothing can stop me.
I also have a food love affair. I like all of it. I have nothing except a few odd local delicacies that I can not eat (pig livers, live (yes live) octopus) I love the smell, the size of the large portions and the textures as I chew. The only thing I hate is the stuffed sensation I get at the end where I can't move and just want to sleep.
Both of these are soooo hard to give up.
Like an addict in a daze....................