Hi kids! I feel as though I haven't been here in forever and really miss all of you! Time to get caught up.
2x2? What's that? I am so far off track I need a map to find my way back. I know that coming here is the key to keeping me focused. I'm not quite sure what's fueling the self-sabotage here. I don't feel particularly sad or depressed. Work still stinks, but that's status quo. I don't know. I do feel as though I'm coming out of the funk <again, I know> but I totally relate to what
Andria had said...
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...when I've been running a light depression. My house is a disaster, I haven't been exercising like normal, and my eating is stagnant. I get to where I'm eating exactly the same foods every day. I do my best to not cook, I wear the same rotation of clothing (at least I don't get so bad that they aren't washed!), and I isolate myself in the house.
I could have written that, word for word!! I'm not even PMSing.
Post MSing perhaps?
Anyway...
I like the thought of focusing on what excites me...In the depths of my despair sometimes I will conjure up the images of things that make me happy and it truly helps.
In no particular order, here are some things that excite me:
Gardening. I am SO looking forward to Spring! Already I see daffodil and hyacinth shoots just starting to pop. Well, I
could before the last barrage of snow was dumped on them! I'm chomping at the bit to start my seedlings. Have been pouring over Spring Hill Nurseries Catalog. Since we cut down a huge maple tree last fall, I have tons of sunlight in the backyard now. Can't wait to get started on a vegetable garden. I've only ever done tomatoes and some herbs before.
Gloria...I know exactly what you mean about watching that tomato grow and ripen. Watching them mature on the vine, I feel as though I've given birth to them! I'm so proud! Geez, I'll be busting at the seams when the zucchini start multiplying!
The beach. All seasons. I love the ocean.
My family. Just hanging out together. Laughing. Mocking each other. Playing cards. Watching movies.
Hiking. Woodsy trails in local parks.
Survivor! This year, so far, seems a bit more interesting than last year's stinker. I LOVE Ian! And Tom! And Janu! Dislike: Coby. Kim.
Re-decorating plans. Dh is getting a substantial bonus this year. He wants to spend it on a mega TV.
We're going to re-do our family room to accomodate the monstrosity.
Everyone is happy!
Mexico! 29 days til Playa del Carmen! Woo hoo! Ole! (do I still have time to drop 50 lbs? No? Damn.)
Music. In the cd turntable at the moment: Carbon Leaf: Indian Summer
Graham Nash: Songs for Beginners. James Taylor's Greatest Hits. Bob Dylan: Blood on the Tracks. Bob Dylan: Desire.
There must be more...will ponder this a bit more....
Lucky...Just think...you really are lucky. You haven't caught anything from your flu ridden family! I hope everyone is on the mend. Keep listening to Dr Phil. He's burrowing into your subconscious. He'll keep you in line!
Skittles, I'm glad to hear that hubby's echo went so well! So sorry to hear about your friend's husband. A friend of mine, at work, just lost her husband to cancer. So sad. Makes you treasure life that much more when death hits so close to home.
Tricia. I'm so sorry to hear about your doggy. Interesting revelation about
punishing yourself. When I stop to consider what I'm doing when I'm on a binge, I realize that I am punishing myself. For being fat. So I eat more. Because that's
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really just a way for me to avoid owning up to that responsibilty.
Yep. Gotta work on that. Big time.
BarbPa...Nice going in AC! How are you feeling these days?
BarbG...What's new, Mustang Sally? (do you love that song? I do!)
Is that eveyone? Oh, yeah....
Tony! Hey, dude! What's new? Exams over yet? Come back and see us!
Wow, I have been here WAY longer than planned. I really have to get moving. I PROMISED myself that today I would make significant progress in the 'clearing the family room of a ton of junk' project. Heh. No, really! I will! I swear! If I can tear myself away from this computer!
"See" you all later!