Hello all!
My NY's celebration is traditionally at home where I know I'll be safe and sound come daylight.... goes back to a long time ago when I led a completely different lifestyle and then learned the hard way. And come to think of it, the full implications took a long, long time to adopt. But as I said, that seems to be typical of my learning process....
Anagram-- I agee, going forward, I want to be on the positve side of the equation---even when when most indicators would predict a negative outcome.....
Empress-- My computer has been struggling too lately.... I can't help but think there are lots of new ads, popups, etc and etc .... I probably need to run some "diagnostics" too and see what the Royal Security finds....
Cerise--Tell us more about the Internet Cafe... Do you pay a fee to use the Internet ?? You're right, there are so many advantages to city living..... I guess there might even be a similiar cafe near my job but for sure in Philadelphia.... And yes, you're right, I'm hard pressed which one I'd choose, but if push came to shove, I'd have to take the Internet vs the phone...
Eydie-- Can't wait to hear what the ex coworkers said when they saw you...
Isn't it always bittersweet when we go to these places in our past? I remember my last trip to my former employer.... b/4 hand couldnt wait but once I got there, couldnt wait to leave.... interesting....
AND OF COURSE THEY NOTICED A DIFFERENCE!@! Didnt they??
Ceara-- Remember my Bluetick Beagle and the white flaky skin rash?? Its back...Until the vet reopens on Monday, remind me what this was .... I found the Keto shampoo and gave her a bath w/ the shampoo rubbed in and "soaking" for about 10-12 minutes ( which was no easy task!). Much of the white stuff came off during the rinse... I remember last time, part of the cure was a daily bath doing the same.... I also am giving her human Vit E hoping to boost her immune system but for life of me can't remember what this skin rash was diagnosed as last year... I really dread the expense of more blood work... but will try to maintain a positive outlook and continue the bath's ( might even be warm enough today to give her one outside if I carry warm water out there!)...
WSW, Wood Nymph, Wildfire, Lurkers, Seecat, and all others.... How is life treating you????
As for DF--- its interesting how much our view of a relationship is changed when we change our view.... My nearly daily contact stopped nearly a full week ago and no contact has been volunteered. And as I said earlier, sometimes, I am a very slow learner... I "realized" this once before as well....
That much of the "work" was done by me.....
I've been noticing more and more during discussions that entire "episodes" (eg, w/ DS) were not remembered, completely misunderstood....which only made me wonder how much of our discussions were "not heard"....
My best read on the situation is that circumstance and health have eclipsed
many other things. In fact, health was the topic that proved to be the straw that made me decide it was time for me to redraw the boundary lines.
Pretty much, the inference was that since I quit smoking, lost weight, gave up sugars ( most of the time ) I am "pretending to be healthy" but
because I am not current on some exams I need to be hounded until I go and have them. And was told I should be hounded.... that if I had a diganosed disease I'd follow all medical advice.....
which in fact, proves that the past years discussions and sharing of my thoughts about 'marketing' by food and drug companies, Mind/body, etc, etc have not been heard. Disagreeing w/ me is fine, but what about knowing what my views are??
Its very similiar to DF 's reaction to my comment about how much I enjoyed DH's WW bread... 5, 6, 7 times the remark was always " I didnt know you ate bread, I thought you were on Protein only".... I guess you could confuse Weight Watchers w/ other plans if you're not familiar but again, there had been dozens of discussions about pros and cons of WeightWatchers vs other plans, stomach stapling , etc, etc....
And did I mention that we've sent a warm from the oven loaf to DF to sample?
Yet, every single conversation, DF invariably asks about DS and what DS's work schedule is ..... which has made me wonder many times if its just to irritate....
hmmmmm ........
And yet, I am still feeling like the "dumped" party... Again, I suspect, the relationship had a deeper meaning for me....which means I will miss it more...
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As I wrote this, I took some breaks to eat, run some laundry, dishes, vacuumed a little and even quick soaked a pan of navy beans..
I am eager to get "lots of stuff done" today....
Its only been 2 or 3 days but DS took a few things and "moved out" ... to his GF's apt w/ her mother... DS prmsd he would clean his room out but if DS thinks leaving his room as it is will let him back if things "don't work out" he is mistaken. When DS explnd he was going to pay his share at GF's house, DH told DS outright that DS would never live here again for free. Personally, by saying that, I feel it gave DS the idea he has a safety net here but I am hopeful.
No matter what happens next, I feel as though for far too long, DH and I were so embarrassed at how DS was living his life ( and in turn, impacting our lives) that it was like dragging an enormous anchor. Both Dh and I need to NOT make excuses, fix, etc DS issues as it doesnt do any of us any good.
And as DS and DD both have proven that our efforts are not appreicated but expected....
Still is very interesting to me how in my own case, I couldnt wait to do for myself becuase it proved how adult I really was...
Must be time to post ...
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Thought of the day:
" It's easy to think of the 'woulda, coulda, shoulda's' but at some point its time to give up past expectations and take inventory of what makes you happy now."
---Jeanette Lawler
Question of the day :
"Do you have a New Year's Eve/Day tradition?"
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KETTLE IS ON!