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Originally Posted by JacobsMommy
But somehow, somewhere I realized that this was a defining moment (for right now).
What do you choose for yourself??
Sandi, this was SUCH a great post. Let me back up and say that I am SO, SO proud of you for staying in control, and for making the choice you did. I'm so happy you were able to find the strength to keep your head above the urge....it can be really easy to let reason get overrun by the "food libido" -- so I just am so proud of you and happy for you.
I think you really nailed it in your post....it WAS a defining moment, and they ARE all choices. The thing is, if we're not consciously THINKING about it, reason doesn't even get an opportunity to kick in, to enable us to even MAKE a choice, you know? You're just acting on desire.......that food libido kicks in, and then you're left afterwards with the presence of mind to think about what you've done....and then that's where the self-destructive, "Let me beat the crap out of myself because I have no discipline and I suck" thinking comes into play. And then it's just a downward, cycling spiral.
You -- and now I'm talking about you, SANDI, not the general "you" -- YOU made your goals your priority in that single defining moment. You made your healthy self your priority. And that's HUGE. I really am so proud of you. I really hope that you're feeling proud of yourself, Sandi -- you're absolutely right, it's all choices -- one after another -- and you made the one that takes the best care of you!!!
Here's to strenght and reason when you're faced with the next one! (And self-forgiveness and renewed resolve the next time you goof, as we all do....
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Congratulations, Sandi!