Ok so I blew the first 2 days last week and stopped trying. I've decided to call that my "false start". Tomorrow is for real, tomorrow is for life! I have to hand it to Fireflynova for doing SBD on nights, that was my mistake -- that I tried to start in the middle of my night rotation. I am now on days for 2 weeks and that will give me the normalcy I need to get started. I think seeing Bunna and Laurie's posts helped motivate me too. There seem to be few people with as much to lose as me and sometimes that is REALLY overwhelming. I gained 5 pounds in 3 months with a major depression (I'm really proud that it was only 5!) and it makes me excited to think that if I really put my mind to this, that 5 pounds could realistically be gone next week and I could be into "virgin" fat.
I just want to thank you again for being such a support to each other -- and in seeing that, I know that if I let myself be known, you will support me too.
Kristin